i'm sorry

I messed up.

I'm sorry. That's all I can possibly say. I'm sorry I'm not perfect. I'm sorry I do everything wrong. I'm sorry for the words that I say that sting. I'm sorry that I'm not strong. I'm sorry for always doubting you. I'm sorry for empty promises. I'm sorry for lying to you. I'm sorry for doubting your love. I'm sorry for being depressed. I'm sorry for hurting myself. I'm sorry I put you through so much. I'm sorry for the fights. I'm sorry for the tears. I'm sorry for sleepless nights. I'm sorry I don't look the best. I'm sorry I'm not myself all the time. I'm sorry that I can never match the love you have given me. I'm sorry that I blame myself for things. I'm sorry I get mad. I'm sorry I mess everything up. I'm sorry I make mistakes. I'm sorry you have to deal with me. I'm sorry I'm always sad. I'm sorry you cant see me. I'm sorry I can't be there for you when your lonely. I'm sorry I can't cheer you up. I'm sorry I get so down on myself that I have to feel real pain for a while. I'm sorry you worry about me. I'm sorry I'm me. I'm just so sorry. I'm sorry I'm alive.. You tell me it's okay, but it's really not. I want to be a perfect girlfriend for you, but I cant. I'm not worthy of your love. I will never deserve it. I want to make you happy, I want to be everything you've ever wanted. I want to be as perfect as you.. I want to never make you sad. I want to never have to apologize again, but I do nothing but mess up. I can't help being stupid. I can't help being sad. My life is screwed up. I'm sorry I doubt your love because I've never been loved. I don't know how to explain how sorry I am for not being perfect. I'm sorry I love you..