Memory (Phan)

Chapter Five.

"We. . .we were singing a song, and the atmosphere was so romantic, so I just went with what felt right. And suddenly, everything felt right, especially with Dan there with me." I knew my face must be bright red, but I was prompted by her warm gaze. "Everything was just perfect. He was perfect. And I was actually afraid he'd just leave me, you know? Think I was to weird, but no, he joined me in that pond and everything seemed to slow down as I looked into his eyes." I took a deep breath, trying not to act more flustered then I actually was, which was proving to be quite difficult.

"And then before I knew what I was doing, I was leaning forward, without any hesitation, it just felt like the right thing to do, you know?" She nodded, giggling quietly, and I was confused for a moment, but I brushed it off as something running through her mind. "And then it happened. He closed his eyes and leaned forward, and we kissed. And I felt fireworks go off inside of me, and I felt content for the first time in forever, rooted, like I wasn't lost for the first time in forever." I looked up at her. "I felt like I knew everything at that moment, and yet nothing at all. My mind was blank, yet running with a million questions, it was so baffling, the feeling. It's almost impossible to explain. It's like. . .wow. It's just wow, the feeling that filled me was wow."

I stopped my rambling to see her quietly squealing, her eyes looking past me, and I gulped, knowing what she was looking at, or more likely, who. I turned around, seeing Dan there with a shocked expression on his face, his face being a light pink, quite mild compared to mine. Which was flaming red at the moment. "Phil. . ." he whispered, still dripping from his shower. He had seemed to forget to put a shirt on, but his pj bottoms were on, thank god. The last thing I needed was an awkward Howell towel slip up. I looked down, wondering if I should say something, or just keep silent.

But I knew everything would be okay when his arms wrapped around me in a comforting action, and I wrapped my arms around him in return, pure happiness filling me. I finally heard a vocal squeal escape the brunette just beside us, and I blushed, but refused to let Dan go until he was ready, and eventually he let me go, but still kept his hand on me. "Desiree, shouldn't you be in bed? It's quite late." He looked at her, and which she scoffed. "I'm 19 years old, Daniel. I go to bed when I damn want to." That was the first time I'd heard her swear, but it seemed like second nature to her, such as it was to Dan. But Dan didn't seem amused, though not furious either. "Please go to bed, Desiree." She rolled her eyes, but a playful smile tugged at her lips. "Fine. But I want a kiss before I sleep." I turned red again, just after my face had finally calmed down.

"Fine." I was surprised at the assurance in Dan's voice, and grew warm as his lips were gently pressed to mine, and I felt myself melt into him all over again. I leaned forward, trying to capture it for a few more moments as he tried to pull away, though I could tell he didn't want to. He smiled at me before turning back to Desiree, who was smiling beyond belief. "Okay, now leave." She nodded, and I smiled at her, getting up, leaving Dan with a distraught expression. "I'll show you to my room, you can sleep there for tonight." She nodded and got up with me, waving towards Dan as we walked down the hallway. "Thank you for that." I whispered and hugged her as I showed her my room.

She just smiled and waved me away, as if though to say, 'It was nothing' and then she hugged me goodnight, whispering into my ear. "You cuddle him for me, okay?" I was flustered all over again, but I nodded in agreement, I honestly couldn't think of anything better to do with Dan. "Love you Uncle Phil, and at this rate, you'll really be my Uncle in no time." I had no time to respond as she gave me a two-fingered salute, with a cheeky wink, and a crooked grin to accompany it as she slipped into the room and closed the door, and I was left there all alone.

I just chuckled and shook my head as I made my way back to Dan. And I grinned at the sight I was presented with. Dan was on the couch, currently cuddling with my BMO throw pillow, clutching it like his life depended on it. I watched him a moment longer before going to grab a comforter, and walked back to him, putting it over him, wondering if I should even attempt to cuddle him. I mean that would possibly be considered creepy and might even wake him up. But as I pondered, his hand shot out and grabbed my wrist, and I looked down with an alarmed expression. "Sleep with me?" If it had been any other time, any other place, I would have rejected instantly, but the way he said, the way he looked at that moment, I just didn't have the heart to reject him. I settled down behind him, knowing I was going to be the bigger spoon in this situation, which wasn't uncommon to me, I was usually the taller one. He seemed content with this, as he turned around and cuddled into my chest, the BMO pillow squished between our two chests. I almost couldn't breathe as I watched him, almost afraid if I moved, or even so much as breathed, I would wake up and this would all be just a dream or he would wake up and reconsider and move away, and I sure as hell didn't want that.

I slowly wrapped my arms around him, and brought him just the tiniest bit closer, feeling my eyes closing as the warmth of his body radiated off of him, and made me smile. He might be tall, but he was currently the smallest and cutest person I had ever met, and remembered. I breathed in clear content as I felt myself slip into slumber, but was shocked awake at the quiet sentence that seemed to sleepily stumble past his lips. "I love you lion." Had he really just said that? Was he even awake enough to know that he had said that? And why did it make my heart leap and pound against my chest like it was the best thing I had ever heard in my entire life.

I looked down at him, the way his eyes was glazed with sleep and half closed, his mouth slightly opening and drooling in the cutest way possible. He tucked his limbs into himself, as if though actually trying to make himself seem smaller. And it was at this moment, as I looked at him, that I realized something. No matter how many times I forget him, no matter how much it made me frustrated me not being able to remember him, one thing was for sure. I had fallen in love with this boy. This boy I could barely remember half the time, and yet, had managed to capture my heart every single time he made new memories with me. I didn't have any seconds thought as I kissed his forehead and gave him a reassuring smile, nodding in agreement. "I love you too, baby bear." And with that answer, he seemed content, kissing my lips lightly, making fireworks go off inside me again as he fell asleep, and I held him tighter. So, I thought to myself, this was how it felt. I always thought I was going to be alone, never having been that good with girls, but all that didn't matter anymore as I closed my eyes and fell into a slumber. So, this was what love felt like.

And god damn, it felt absolutely amazing.

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a long anticipated chapter by a few people that I know is finally complete, sorry I've been quite lazy and just haven't had the time to continue this chapter.

THOUGH TODAY I AM GOING TO LOOK LIKE A FEMALE DAN HOWELL WITH MY BLACK LACE DRESS AND CUTE FLAT BLACK SHOES, TINY BLACK HEART EARRINGS, AND DARK LIPSTICK.

and the new character, Desiree, is not me, no matter what you guys think. it is actually my friend, whom I promised I would put in my story, and she worked pretty well in it, and I think she will be a recurring character in this story.

so please, enjoy, comment, craft, like, and share.