Living with the bad boy

Plane ride

"FUCK!!,GUVE ME MY FUCKING PHONE LILLY"I laughed and saw who he was texting that girl,her name was Janet,I looked through the messages and saw texts of her and him

'I love you babe'-Justin
'Aww me to,can we hang out tonight at mines'-Janet
'Sure babe,I have to sneak behind my girls though they some annoying bitches'-Justin

By reading those text messages my heart shattered,i think coming back was a big mistake,if he still does this then why do I even try with him"LILLY!!"I grabbed his phone and went out the door throwing it on the floor

"I SHOULD HAVE NEVER CAME BACK,JUST FOR YOUR FUCKING ASS TO BE CHEATING ON ME,COMING HERE WAS A BIG MISTAKE FOR ME,MY HEART IS GOING TO BE SHATTERED BECAUSE OF YOU,ACTUALLY IT ALREADY IS!!"

I cried cause I was mad and sad"IS THIS HOW YOU REPAY ME,I WASN'T EVEN TEXTING HIM,I WAS PLAYING AROUND,YOU PLAY AROUND WITH GIRLS HEARTS AND YOU STEP ON THEM LIKE ITS NO BIG DEAL!!"

I cried and Amalia ran up the stairs and held me back,I shrugged her off making her fall back,I ran downstairs calling a taxi,why did I come back,I should have never made that decision,he will never change his ways"LILLY IM SORRY!!"

I ran and went to a bus station,I'm going back to my home where I'm supposed to be,not here I want to be far away from here,I ran and fell crying"Lilliana!!"He catched up to me 

Should I let him get me and apologize?Did I give him so many chances that he ruined them all for himself? All that thinking on that  whole subject,I didn't have time to make my own decision my hands were to my face and Justin held me"I'm sorry"I put him off of me and got up,wiping away my tears

"You know what maybe we shouldn't even be together,not even in the first place....it was a mistake coming here and me getting with you,maybe I didn't mean that much to you,but you know it doesn't matter anyways,you have Janet with you.."

just smile and be happy for him,if that's what you want,I smiled"It was a mistake but I left a lot of memories here,so I'm going to live them with or without you,I'd rather do it without though,it's better for both of us you go your way and I'll go mines"
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I was at a bar alone with no one and I kept ordering beer,Mark texted me,I told him I cancelled it and we can't see each other as friends anymore,I'm done with guys

"You drank to much of that stuff,it's to strong you know"the bartender told me,I shrugged"Don't you ever feel worthless,on second thought, don't you wish you could just strangle someone that you love for what they did to you"he shrugged,he cleaned the tables"That's for you to understand and for them to decide"

"Can you give me another strong one?"he nodded"Lay off it"he poured some more beer into my drink and I drank it,stupid boys and their fucking player ways,why can't we just have everyone not cheat on anyone anymore,I guess that's not how life is"Leave the bottle here"

he did and walked away,I just drank it by mouth while a guy sat by me looking at me like I was crazy"Want some?"he played with the bright red cup in his hands"No"I decided to go to the restroom and I was tipping and the room kept spinning,"Whoop I'm a airplane!!"I pulled my arms out and flew around like planes do and girls walked outside and inside the restrooms

"Vroom!!..."next thing you know I was in the restroom stall throwing up"Damn..."I threw up more and sat beside the toilet when I was done"I was looking for you everywhere!!"I heard Justin and took out a beer from my purse

"Get away from me you played me!!"I screamed and drank the beer throwing it beside him on the floor,it shattered and he came in to get me and I kicked him on the leg"LEAVE ME ALONE!!"he moaned but still grabbed me

"Your mean-I don't want to ever see you again....he's going to kill me....HELP!!"people just watched and I flicked them off"FUCKERS HELP ME!!"they looked around and no one did"DAMN PEOPLE WHAT A HELP YOU ARE!!"I cried and screamed at him

LYOUR SO MEAN LEAVE ME ALONE AND GO BACK TO YOUR 'BABY'SINCE IM SUCH AN ANNOYING BITCH,RIGHT JUSTIN IM AN ANNOYING BITCH LIKE YOU SAID ME AND AMALIA WERE,YOUR SO STUPID FOR LIKING HIM LILLY"I hit my head and punched myself

He grabbed my hands and I punched him,it didn't make much of a difference"Stop Lilly!!"he didn't yell but a tiny bit"I LOVE YOU....DO YOU NOT SEE THAT.....I don't think you do,your just blind to think I am.....you don't like me your just using me..."

He grabbed my arms and hugged me,I'm tired everything was spinning and I whispered in his ear"Can you please-catch me I'm about to faint!!"he let me go"Wait right now-"I fell back and he catched me,I wasn't going to ask him that question but it still is one,I fell into his strong grip and felt him carry me"I'm so stupid...I'm sorry for hurting you Lilly.."

-The day after-

"AHHHHH!!!" I woke up having a dumb migraine"WHATS WRONG??"someone held a bat and it was Jake"JAKE!"I got up even though my body and head hurted"Cupcake hey"I cried"I missed you..."he smiled"Me to,I'm sorry I didn't see you in a long time cupcake"

I smiled,kissing his cheek and hugged him tightly"Wahhh"he laughed,I felt his chest vibrate while he was laughing and he asked something"He told me and I need to talk to you about it"I nodded sighing"I'm tired of him and his cheating I get tired of it Jake"I held onto him and he sighed running a hand through his hair"Talk to him about it...trust me it will work"I nodded hesitating on debating on it"Ok I'll try"

That day after Jake left I went to Justin's room,hearing sad music on,I knocked and beard him say"Come in!!"I walked in and layed on his bed with him"Why are you listening to sad music"he was quiet as always when we don't talk to each other,he just shrugged"You go first"he sighed and got up going the opposite way of me"first on what?"I got up to,but standing"Your feelings"

He ran a hand down his face"I don't know,Lilly I love you...I just am jealous when your with other boys other than me"I nodded"Ok my turn......I love you to Justin but you need to change what all that was on the phone your feelings they confuse me so much that I feel stabs going through my heart constantly pain is going through me"he hugged me"I'm sorry"

should I forgive him"Ok a saying is that you have to give people second chances so they can improve theirselves"I smirked gladly feeling smarter"That's not what they say"I frowned

"Ow wow thanks for making me feel dumber than I already am"he smiled and went straight forward towards me slowly and I went towards him and our lips touched their was an electrifying and shock between us,butterflies erupted in my stomach and I smiled while kissing