Lost Soul

Lost Soul-Chapter 1 (Fulfilled soul)

Even if this story is called "Lost soul" we're going to start by talking about what is the true meaning of a fulfilled soul. Some are working so hard a whole life just for a moment of fame, feeling this way like true fulfilled souls. But this is just an illusion of what normal people think a true fulfilled soul means...The truth is that a moment of fame is nothing compared with a human life... Anyway, people are too foolish to find the true meaning of this in their life... and that's very sad...

I don't need fame, even if I could get it much easier than others. I need the thing that's hiding behind fame; and what I mean by this is the help and support of loved ones; in short what everyone would call a family... I never had the feeling of the warmth of my family, maybe only from my mentor... Love, warmth, support, help... Never felt these things... Sometimes I'm feeling like a dead body pretending to be alive... Reality...what is that thing? I don't know, because my reality died when i was 6... So the definition of a lost soul is exactly me...Without knowing the love of a true family...Without someone to support me... I'm just a wondering soul... searching my place between my dreams and reality. Not even my mentor gave all of these things to me... He just helped me and taught me how to control my powers... He was only by my side to use me. He only pretended to love me, making me experience how it feels to have someone... A family... Because he knew that this was my purpose as a wondering lost soul.

Since my body died at a young age, I was stuck in a green body without the possibility of growing up anymore. That's why my mentor was always dressing me like a doll, like a cute little girl... Having my cute, white, long hair and my big red eyes, I was my mentor's favorite "toy".

I was in my 8th year of school. The next year I should have gone to high school. But, one night, when I was out with my best friends, it happened... I was going to get some drinks for everyone when suddenly I saw someone laying down in the middle of the street... Or that is what I thought I saw. I ran until I reached the place where I saw the guy, but when I got there I saw nothing. It was like that person evaporated. When I realized I was on the middle of the street, a car trod me.

That strange feeling that enveloped me... The feeling of dying... It happened so fast. In that moment I felt like my whole life passed in front of my eyes. And everything that I saw was loneliness, darkness and suffering. Just a spot of light kept me alive. Just one thing, one person that cared and helped me, loved me. And that person was Tomoyo-chan, my best friend since we were kids. She was like a imouto for me and that's why I care for her so much. I still remember how cute she was when she was trying to be upset on me. She was making a really amusing face... Those memories I can't forget. And it's seems that I even am going to die with them in my mind... But that doesn't matter, I'm still happy cause I had her as my little sister, as my family. And I'm also sad because I won't see her cute face anymore...

A moment when the only thing you feel it's release... Nothing can take you away... Pain, problems, happiness, darkness, light, demons, friends... Life. Everything ends up... The only thing that can reach you in that moment is coldness...

My friends didn't see when this happened; but they called the police and my family because I never came back with the drinks. The one who found me was Tomo-chan, when she left to search for me. I was still alive... I can remember her scream, even now, when she saw me. Her scared eyes started crying and I couldn't hug her and tell her that I was fine. I couldn't say goodbye. I still remember her dark long hair falling on her shoulders, her light brown eyes and the tears that were falling from them. I died with her face on my mind... Or so I thought...

Three days later I woke up in a dark room with someone sitting on a chair beside my bed. That was when I first met my mentor. A tall guy with white long hair and blue eyes.