Unexpected Treasure

I now fully understand why people say life can turn around at any second. In a matter of three years, my life is nothing as I would've expected. Younger me wouldn't have thought I'd be where I was today. Let me give you a bit of backstory.

Lets go back to sophomore year. This is just a little refresher since I've already written about this. Point blank I fell head over heals over someone I thought I would spend the rest of my life with. That was a heart breaker but God had other plans. We met for one bigger reason and I was okay with that. So then my first love got taken away from me and in a matter of time I got someone I never knew I'd regret to be with. At the time he literally saved my life and I was so thankful for that. After my first breakup I was so deep in the feels that when we unexpectedly met, I felt like this is just what I needed. Now it's a whole different story.  Now since I wrote "First time we laid eyes on each other" we have long gone been over and I thank God for that. Sorry to say this but those were three years of my life I'll never get back. Yes im thankful that I had someone to help me get through tough times but also there was a bigger picture to be accomplished that obviously never did so it had to end. So that was basically the backstory to this. Now lets get to the good stuff.

After ending my dreaded relationship, I felt all kinds of emotions such as freedom and happiness. Sucks to feel that way about someone you wanted to spend the rest of your life with but God has other plans for me. He was literally such a huge distraction from conquering my life goals. Now that that has been over for about six months now, my life has been going through some twists and turns both good and bad. Bad was all of the craziness associated with an ex and good was I was blind to never notice my prince charming was right under my nose.

While in my previous relationship, I obviously never noticed him because I was holding on to the last hopes I had for us to work out. Then afterwards, I was still yet to notice because he was my best friend. Plus, I would be risking the friendship if the feelings weren't mutual. A month later a friend of mine came up to me sharing with me her thoughts about him and basically said "Hey I think he likes you girl" and I was shocked at what she said but it was only an observation so all I did was laugh a little and said "No way hes like my best friend. Prove it". She somehow actually got proof and I was surprised as to how long he kept that a secret but at the same time I was going through other stressful things so I just put that information out to the side. I never thought much of it until one day. I can't go into full on detail because I would literally have to tell you my whole life so let me just explain as much as I can. Some very crazy things happened this particular day that had me worrying about him more than I usually would. I then driving home asked myself "Man, why am I worrying so much?". At that moment I starred into the darkness of night with my eyes wide open and thought "What if..I have feelings for him and it took this certain situation to realize that?". I shared those feelings but didn't share that information with him. My mind was going crazy at the idea of us and how he was my best friend and maybe one day we could be more. I had to stop myself since I didn't one hundred percent know if he liked me back. Now let's fast forward a couple of weeks. Don't ask me but somehow someway I ended up confessing and it was better than I could've expected. After this a lot of other stuff I can't go into full detail happened and kinda made life worse. Point blank, we couldn't be together. This was upsetting at first but I learned to deal with it because you shouldn't have to chase someone that God has for you. So that's what I've been doing. Doing my own thing until hopefully one day we can be together.

But let me tell you a little bit about him. He is the most well dressed, hilarious, handsome and smart guy I have ever met. He literally cares about other people more than he cares for himself. If you're feeling blue he will be the first to reach out. That's something I love about him. He was always there when I was going through a rough patch. Knowing just the right things to say. His sense of fashion is so unique and I love it. Let's just say he keeps it classy. As far as his looks, its like looking at a sunrise when its just the right colors where it looks a little bit like cotton candy. Let me not get started on his hugs. They're like when you get the clothes out of the drier and they're so warm and fluffy and cozy and you just want to cuddle and fall asleep.  C'mon, I can't be the only one here. Even my dog cuddles up in that comfortable pile of freshly dried warm pile of clothes. They smell good and make ya sleepy with all their warmth. Tell me not. Alright, well this concludes this short story I guess you could say. Remember, never give up on something you really want. It's difficult to wait, but worse to regret. If it's meant to be, nothing can stop the plan God has for you no matter what situation might stand in the way.