Wrong Number (Josh Dun)

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Joshy 💜: I'm alone and I wish u were here

M: is this a booty call or something

Joshy 💜: a what ?

M: idk it's in that selfie song

Joshy 💜: You're so behind in internet trends

M: get off my dick

Joshy 💜: I ? Don't ? Kno ? How ? To ? Respond ? To ? That ?

M: you don't have to respond, you just gotta hop off my dick (;

Joshy 💜: Hop on mine 0;

Me: gtggrggtggggtggtgtgtgtggttggggggg

Joshy 💜: I'm jk jk, unless u don't want me to be joking

M: I'm just gonna go shower now

Joshy 💜: without me ? :(

M: stop u no get no fuks
***
I left my phone on the couch and went to shower, now uncomfortable. I didn't want to tell Josh that my nightmares were about Jai, it was horrible, the one night I don't have him with me and bam, Jai was back.

Sometimes it was all I could think about, like what if I wasn't able to give Josh what he wanted, or treat him well enough. There was always a thought in the back of my mind telling me Josh didn't really like me, and was using me, just like Jai.

It didn't matter that Josh was different, my mind showed the same red flags all over the place when it came to relationships. And all because some asshole ruined them for me. Nobody deserved to go through what I did, not even my worst enemy. It ruined my trust, and myself. I would no longer be forgiving towards Jai, it was never my fault to not do certain things for him.
***

Once out, I wrapped my hair in a towel and got dressed, once I was done, I went back out I i the living room and picked up my phone.

Joshy 💜: Sweets I promise that was a joke I'm sorry
I took it too far
Please answer me I'm sorry
Call me
Sara
Baby please I'm sorry

M: Josh I was in the shower, it's alright

Joshy 💜: fuck no it's not, I didn't mean to upset you I promise

M: I know that you didn't mean to, you didn't upset me.

Joshy 💜: No I know that I did, I'm crappy I know. Please forgive me
***
A thousand thoughts raced through my mind. Forgive me, forgive me, I didn't mean it, I barely touched you, forgive me, I'm sorry, it won't happen again, well you know how bad my temper is so be fucking mindful of it next time!
***

M: I forgive you babe, it's alright you didn't do anything.

Joshy 💜: I love you, can you FaceTime?

M: I love you too, and give me like 5 minutes

Joshy 💜: Alright baby girl.

I wiped away any tears of my small breakdown and decided to go brush my hair and put on some makeup.

I wanted to curl my hair for once when it dried, so I only brushed it and left it how it was. I put on my normal amount of makeup which ended up taking another five minutes.

I went back on the couch and started calling Josh.

He answered, "Hey sweets." I smiled softly.

"Hi babe, how are you?" I asked.

"Well besides the fact I really really miss you and really want to cuddle you, I'm tired." I frowned at that.

"I'm sorry to hear, I miss you too handsome, I wish you were here, I would make you go back to bed, and then kiss you lots." Josh smiled at that, making me happier.

I heard a couple "oohs" in the background and froze, "Who's that?" I questioned insecurely.

"It's Tyler, who's leaving now." I heard a door shut and sighed.

"I'm sorry about that Syrup." Josh rubbed his forehead with his hands.

"Don't worry about it, are you excited to play tonight?" I looked out my window and saw a bunch of cars driving by, each person had a different story in each of those cars.

"Yes I am, I'd be a lil more pumped if you were there though. I feel like dog crap because you're not here." I tapped my foot on the ground sadly a couple times.

"I wish I was there too, but hey it's like, four days until you're back!" Josh smirked.

"Yeah four days." Josh winked, my brows furrowed.

"What?" I chuckled while Josh moved his eyebrows up and down.

"It's a shia-surprise"

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I hope this wasn't like, too depressing for those who made it through any triggering parts )):
also I'm tired and this week has been awful so I'm gonna sleep even tho it's like 8:30 cause all of my friends don't want to talk to me and I'm home alone and feel like a lump of crap !!

Anyways, have a good/safe weekend! Anyone got any plans ??
I'm prolly going to the fair in my town and doin some fun stuff ayy