I don't like that we are a secrect. That I can not just lay with you in my house and not feel so terrified that my mom or her boyfriend will walk in. But I like our moments when we can just sit together and I can hold you or you can hold me. I know you care about me and I don't think this is just a physical thing. I truely think you like me. I just don't know why you stay with your girl friend I don't get the point of that. Why not be single you don't even have to be with me why lead her on. All In all I would even be scared to be your girl friend. What of you did what you have done to two girls with me to me. I dont want to experience that. The thing that I hate the most is that I miss you at night and I want you at the house so that I can just be around you. I just like it . The feeling I have for you isn't love but it is not pure lust. I just don't know how to feel right now.
