Standing on the side of the road, cool water strikes at my body from above like sharp daggers, i walk forward through the rain, a warm red liquid flowing down my arm staining my knitted jumper, my tear stained cheeks soaking wet and hot despite the cold winds, my hairs whipping around in the wind violently as i walk forwards, my bleeding feet hurt but the pain in my chest out ways it 'shes gone' are the only two words in my head, i hear a loud sound but i don't react, a large pain flows through my body, i fall to the floor surrounded by my blood, the truck lights blindingly bright.
I awake to the sounds of heart monitors and the far away muttering from patients and doctors, every moment is a blur 'if only' i begin to think 'if only i was there' tears roll down my face as i close my eyes once again. shes there, oh god shes there "im sorry" i cry, my voice doesnt reach her, she points her finger accusingly at me "its your fault" she says "you should be dead in my place" she fades away leaving me crying in a small white room, slowly i open my heavy eye lids and look around my room, i get up and make my way to my clothes draws, i grab a small metal object and walk into the bathroom in tears.
A dark liquid pools in the floor, my head slowly begins to grow soft as the world around me begins to darken, the pain in my chest has gone, I'm at peace, i smile faintly feeling as if I'm floating, i see her again, she gently pulls me into her warm embrace and i close my eyes, i can hear her heart, her breathing, I'm finally with her again.
(hey thanks for reading this, im sorry for not spelling properly or using proper gramma and punctuation)
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My Emotions
Random!TRIGGER WARNING! this is my current feelings, I'm very overly emotional so minimal hate comments would be greatly appreciated
