Dear Justin

Saying Goodbye

Ariana's POV:
This is the day I dreaded most, and it wouldn't seem like a big thing to you, but for me, it's going to be the hardest thing I'm ever going to face. Justin is going to Australia, the other side of the planet, to tour for 3 weeks and I'm going to be alone. My Nonna could pass away any day now and if she passes whilst I'm alone, I don't know what I'd do. Suffering with severe clinical depression alone would be enough for me, but if my Nonna dies too...
But my Nonna is the strongest woman I have ever met, and I know somewhere in my mind that she'll make it, she'll be okay. But there's too many negative thoughts to even begin thinking of that. I just want Justin to be with me, he's my rock and shoulder to cry on when I need it. But he needs to work and I need to become stronger, and this is how it will go.

Justin's POV:
I loaded my last suitcase into the trunk and slammed it shut. I got into the passengers seat of our car and looked at Ariana. You could see the sadness filling her eyes and her entire face looked distraught, and the worst thing was, I couldn't do anything. Of course I could just cancel but I've cancelled far too many shows already this tour, I need to do this. For me, for Ariana. "Whenever you're ready, babe" I gave the go ahead to Ari and she started the engine within seconds like an automated chauffeur, she didn't even make eye contact with me.
The car journey was close to silent, we had music on and every so often I'd hum the tune to try and lift the mood and silence but it'd never work. I made a playlist of all of Ariana's favourite songs, which I hate, just to make her happy but my efforts didn't seem to pay off.
Soon enough we arrived at the airport and we found my terminal. I pulled Ariana in for the biggest hug she'd receive for the next 3 weeks and told her repeatedly how much I loved her and how strong she is. She looked at me, blank faced, and didn't seem to acknowledge the words I was saying. But it didn't matter to me, I know how strong she is and how much I love her, I don't care if she doesn't know herself, the truth is that she is strong and that I love her more than anything. And words just can't express everything.

Ariana's POV:
I felt numb as Justin pulled me in for a final hug and he repeatedly told me words like "love" and "strong". I couldn't understand anything, I felt like I was having a meltdown and anything I'd ever been told was completely wiped from my memory and whatever I did to remember it, it was just gone. Justin would look me straight in the eyes and talk to me but all I'd hear was "meh meh meh meh meh"... Nothing added up. Nothing ever did.