Some Things

1: Devastation

So there's this thing.

Someone discovered I was talking to this older guy and freaked out. They told me I had to stop texting him. I was horribly devastated. He was an amazing friend and it hurt to tell him to not text me for a while. Since then I've felt okay but there's something missing. Like a hole that doesn't really affect me but I can feel it. I act the same but on the inside its like I'm empty. I'm empty, tired, hopeless, sad, and hurt all at the same time.

I don't know if I can face him anymore after this.

I feel so stupid for everything.

Please don't hate on this and think that there are worse things that can happen. I know that. Don't think I don't. But right now this is the worse thing in my life and it certainly doesn't feel good.