remarkable

freshman

Dear Parker,
I cant hide them anymore. My friends know. And I swear to god that I love you but I'm so tired of being hurt. I know you drink to numb the pain but do you remember when our love was all that was needed to make you forget there even was pain? I've began to think of you like roller-coaster; you go up and down and you terrify me, but you also give me this rush, and when the ride comes to an end I realize how much I loved it... But I can only ride the roller coaster so many times until I realize that it's making my head hurt... And maybe I should just get off this roller coaster if it hurts me so much. But for good this time...

September 3

"How was your first day of high school girls" Lilly's mom asks as we get in the car "it was great" Lilly says beginning to tell her mom all about it. I silently stare out the window as I watch the teenagers flee from this large building known as a school. "How was yours Skylor?" She asks stopping at a red light "it was fine" I mumble taking notice in a boy crossing the street. He wears a red and blue flannel and black jeans "who's that?" I ask gently touching the cold window "I don't know his name" Lilly begins "but I have him in my theater class" I observe him closely "he's attractive" I state
"He's angry" Lilly whispers. I look at her confused "I've talked to him and he knows my brother, he's always so angry, i don't know how to explain it. But he's weird" I watch as he walks down the sidewalk "he's attractive" I state again "sky" She gives me a Stern look "Don't go after him he's a Jr"
"I don't care" I laugh
"He's weird and I don't want you to get hurt" I role my eyes "thanks for the ride" I say getting out the car.
As I walk into my house the smell of weed fills my nostrils, I look to the side to see my brother and his friend "It smells" I state "Yeah it smells good!" Trent says lurching towards me as if trying to scare me. My phone buzzes in my pocket and I walk to my room ignoring the two idiot's.

Bands.and.Vans: wassup friend

I smile at my screen

Me: hi Parker

I drop my backpack next to my desk and take a moment to look at the pictures on my desk. I gently touch a frame that holds a picture of me and my mother at Disney land when I was about 4, her lips puckered as she kisses me in our matching outfits. "Sky, dad will be home in an hour and he wants the kitchen clean!" My brother Jacob yells from the outside of my door. I pick up my phone and tell Parker I won't be online for another 30minutes or so.
After I'm done cleaning the kitchen my brother begins to cook and I help him, he's making chicken and pasta. I season the chicken while he chops the veggies, Trent sits at the other side of the island telling me about some girl he likes "why don't you ask her out?" I ask when he's done and all he does is shrug "because Trent's a pussy" my brother says reaching over me to grab the salt "shut the fuck up man" Trent yells in a joking tone. I laugh at their stupidity and let my brother cook the chicken as I boil the noodles "what about you Sky" Jacob says looking back at me "any guys?" I shake my head smiling "nope"
"It was your first day of high school and not one guy caught your eye?" Trent asks. I put the lid on the pot full of boiling noodles and walk over to Trent "well yeah, high school guys are hot" I sit down on a stool next to trent "but I mean one really caught my eye I guess" my brother smirks "what's his name?"
"Not sure but he was cute"
"You don't know his name?" Trent asks looking a bit too excited "that must mean you have no classes together"
"well he's a Jr" I say in defense and suddenly my brother's face gets serious "damnit" he whispers "you owe me 20 bucks" Trent says and I'm suddenly really confused. "What?" Trent and Jacob laugh "me and Jacob made a bet that you would be interested in a guy by the end of the week, but your brother thought it would be a freshman" I shake my head and shove a chopped onion in my mouth "stop talking about me when I'm not here" I say walking to my room.
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When my dad gets home we all sit at the table to eat dinner "so how was your first day of high school?" My dad asks
"Fine I guess" I swirl my fork around the pasta "Skylor" my dad says in all seriousness "I know it's hard, and tell me if you need more therapy, but you have to try hard this year, and you can't mess around with your life"
"I'm fine" I say looking to my brother "seriously sky this isn't middle school. You need every credit you can get, this all goes towards your future now. If you even let yourself have one"
"I fucking know dad, I get it I used to mess up a lot and I never did good in school but I know the definition of try and if it's what I need to do then I'll do it, but just get of my back"
"Woah sky that wasn't necessary" my brother says with a mouth full of food "what's not necessary is him constantly telling me what I already know... I've gotten this talk about 18 times within the last month, he needs to stop treating me like I'm a danger to myself" I get up and walk to my room, he just cant let it go.

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Bands.and.Vans: how was your first day of school hun

Me: why does everyone ask that?

Bands.andVans: lol cuz why not
Bands.and.Vans: I still think we should meet

Me: why I'm lame

Bands.and.Vans: cuz maybe I'm into you

Me: then get over me cuz I don't date and I don't wanna meet

Bands.and.Vans: but just tell me why you don't wanna meet we've been talking for a year and I swear to you I won't rape you

Me: lol i don't even know what you look like

Bands.and.Vans: so you want a picture cuz I can send one

Me: no Parker I'm just not interested in you

Bands.and.Vans: so why can't we meet as friends

Me: why can't you just respect the fact that I don't wanna meet

Bands.and.Vans: whatever I gotta go

Me: I didn't mean to offend you

Bands.and.Vans: goodbye

I shove my phone under my pillow and get up to see what's happening in the living room. "Hey guys" I say sitting next to trent on the couch "we're going to the store do you wanna come"
"I don't know I have to-"
"Stay home and text your Internet friends?"
I look at Jacob annoyed with his comment. That's not all I do. Trent stands up "just come with us, it'll be fun" I look at the time then look at trent and Jacob "fine" I sigh "but no smoking I fucking hate that smell"