Lost (slow updates)

Prologue

"... and I have sworn to him that I will never cheat, that I will love him unconditionally."

I looked inside the church where dad's funeral is held. My tears are hopelessly falling from my eyes. I even have to cover my mouth to not let anyone hear my sobs. Just by looking at my mom here outside, it pained me seeing her in that state. 

"Dad, you're a beautiful memory now. A beautiful memory that will never be vanished." she paused for a while and looked at Dad's coffin. She began crying again. "Mahal na mahal kita Edward, mahal na mahal". 

As mom finished her eulogy, I stood up, wiped my tears and began walking. I wanna get out of here. 

"Where is she going?" They are obviously talking about me since I was the only person here outside.

"Hayaan mo na. Let's just understand her situation right now and she might wanna decathect. Balita ko may sakit daw ang mom nyan" 

"I pity her" 

As I heard what the other girl said, I started to run while crying. I just wanna get out of here. I don't know where to go. I don't know where to cry.

I'm so lost.