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I sat on my bed realizing that I would never see this person (that I was partially close to) again . I realized (remembered) I had this person's dad for a science teacher last year ..  no parent should have to go threw the death of their child . Death happens !  It's not something u can prevent . But u try to hold it off as long as possible ... u try to protect your self from the very thing that is coming after you your whole life if you are lucky you can hold it off for up to 90 years but then you become weak an unable to free your self from its grasp. for it holds on as tight as it can because no one wants to be alone , death dose not want to be alone . So it takes what it wants and I guess it wanted Cole and it took him not even letting him get weak .. But using the very thing man made ,to kill man the very thing that symbolizes freedom in my generation (car) kills as well , sets you ultimately free to do go see what ever . I think , May be he should have fought hard looked out watched .. But how can u see something u don't expect , answer ? Expect it . But "expecting can also turn into " chronic fear  of every thing ism . So don't be blind but he is  free ..  he dose not have to worry about , insomnia or test or , rules anymore for he is free .. with God .. I remember in fifth grade he brought a green almost see threw bible to school to show me cuz  I always talked about God and tried to convince  atheist God was real,  I from then on told him his bible was glow in the dark , that bible was not glow in the dark but I told every body that ,I told my mom ,myself, even him . But I always new it was just a beautiful green bible that I wished glowed in the dark .. I realise that now . I hope he studied that bible .. and excepted the main character .. for one day I want to see him again , I wanna see him in heaven .. when I have gotten to weak to fight off death . I wanna understand how his last seconds where ,I wanna know did he get to take a breath before he left this earth , I wanna know what he saw ,or was he In the middle of blinking , I wanna know if he was tired and about to drift to sleep .. I wanna know if he had to feel the pain of a pain full death I wanna know was he ready I wanna know did he cry I wanna know his last words I wanna know . I have to understand , I need to understand why was he In the car what was his destination . Did he really wanna go where he was going how is his little brother reacted to becoming an only child , how did his father take the blow how did his mother first react when she found out she had  out lived her own son how did he feel when he no longer felt. What was his last thought did he think about the possibility of stepping into the car how did the person on the other end of the crash feel how did  people in the car feel when they found out they had survived but my friend had finally been able to meet his maker . How dose God feel is he happy that he finally gets to see his child ,and sad that his other children would miss him . Is Cole mad about a pre mature death or was his death not premature at all but right on point did he complete his mission on this earth . Are his parents going to realize that their son is in a better place are they going to stay faith full to God or leave his side because of the action taken on earth bye man then come back to him because they realize this is not gods doing , but a test that they would pass because their eyes where opened and they finally understood what it felt like when God had to watch the death of his son and also they will under stand the joy they will feel when they see him up in heaven . Will they be happy that their son won't have to grow up in this Sodom of a world . I wonder ,are they happy?