My first date, and I was so not ready for it! There I was on my first date. The worst part was that he was looking so handsome. And he was talking to me like he knew me for years. I was too busy thinking. He was asking why he didn't see me on the balcony the last two days. I just shrugged my shoulder and said, "Blame my shitty mood". I couldn't believe that I had cussed in front of him. Ding Ding! Minus two hundred points!
My first date was converting into a disaster and I was the jackass axing the branch I was sitting on. Believe it or not, surprisingly, it didn't end in a disaster. He asked me out and we met frequently afterwards. He was pursuing a graduate degree. And I got to know much more about him and his family as the time passed. His name is Andrew. Not a romantic name. [Read: How to be a great date all the time]
But today I can tell you that he is the most romantic person in the world. He is responsible for bringing out the lost confidence in me and I am not afraid to be myself with him. He is mine and I could ask for nothing more. He proposed to me and it was the best day of my life. Of course, I accepted and we're going to get married soon.
Just last month, my first crush tracked me down on Facebook. He got my number from one of my old classmates and called me up. He was in the city and wanted to meet. Why? Just like that, an acquaintance with an old friend was what he said. He was begging me to meet him. I told him that I would meet him at a café the next evening. I was so not looking forward to meeting him though.
When I discussed it with my fiancé, he told me to go and meet the guy. "Talking has never killed anyone and as long as your old love story doesn't rekindle, I have no issues." He was teasing me. That "old love story" had failed to revive after all those long years. I wasn't even able to remember his full name.
After work the next day, I went to meet this guy. Surprisingly, I was able to recognize him. He hadn't changed one bit. But something was different this time, I wasn't feeling that tingle. Nothing. Zilch. It felt like he was just a stranger that I had bumped into for a conversation. Perhaps I had grown up or perhaps the pages of my love story were filled with another man's name.
I wasn't feeling any bitterness towards him either. The half hour with him felt like a business meeting. No emotions or fake emotions exchanged. I couldn't even understand why he even wanted to meet me. We were never friends. When I told him that I was engaged, he seemed shocked.
"You can't do that to me, I like you a lot!" he said all of a sudden. [Read: How men really fall in love]
"What do you mean by that?"
His reaction was a surprise to me. "Your scarlet lipstick looks good on you," he reminded me, hoping to rekindle that day when I was crazy about him.
But it hit me the other way, and the pain of that evening came rushing back to me. I just looked at him, blankly. "I don't want you to live in the past." I wasn't able to hold back words this time around.
"It was just a childhood crush. Please don't take it seriously. I am fine with my life and have no clue why you're bringing this up, and now, after all these years. I am happy with my partner and wish you can find someone nice for yourself too. Please don't get in touch with me again. Good luck with your life." I told him and rushed home to meet my love.
We can all fall in love plenty of times, but there's always that one special time when we come across a perfectly true love story in your own life.
So don't be afraid to fall in love, and don't ever give up on it, because romantic true love stories may seem like a fairytale, but they're usually always waiting for you right around the corner.
