Shattered Hearts (Completed Sequel of Drugshot - Bride of Depp) #Wattys2016

Chapter XIV

"Set You Free"

I look out the window with heavy features. I feel horrible because of everything that's happening. My wavering heart led me to this situation and I'm hating myself for it. I shouldn't have developed feelings for him...and I shouldn't have led Kenneth on like that just to weigh my feelings for him...and for Johnny...

Now everything is a mess. My anger for Johnny is still inside me, but the moment I looked into his eyes after I've thrown the berries...the moment his tears fell from them...I can't help but feel so guilty.and God... His children... What have I done?! The pain in their broken voices still echo inside my mind... Their cry as they call for Johnny and look at me with pain and fear in their eyes...it didn't help that Tom embraced me right away and I didn't get to see their faces. I can still imagine their lingering stare and their broken voice...and it suffocates me so much knowing that I hurt both of them with the cruel words I said.

My eyes catch him from walking to the parking as I stand behind the huge glass window of my room in this second level of the hospital. He is carrying his daughter in his arms, her face is leaning on his shoulders and she'd wipe her own tears from time to time. His son is holding his free hand and would sniff and wipe his tears as well as they walk towards the car.
Johnny whispers something to his daughter's ears before he kisses the side of her head, letting go of his son's hand, he grabs the keys from his pocket and opens the car. He sits in a squat position in front of them before he wipes their tears with his hands...then he looks up at my direction.
Feeling all the pain and guilt, I step away and hide myself behind the wall, my tears are continuously falling. How can I be so cruel to say the words I said to him...and to his innocent children...
I feel like going insane and didn't notice that I already begin sobbing out loud until I feel my brother's arms pulling me to his embrace.

"I feel horrible, Tom.., what am I to do...?! What should I do?!" My shaking body is now imprisoned inside Tom's arms but I still feel so bad, I still feel like I'm going insane because I know how much I hurt those innocent angels.
They don't even know me but they sweetly picked up berries for me and wrote me a letter... I don't even know them too and yet, instead of thanking them, I hurt them so much with words even myself would flinch and have a heartbreak if I hear those words...even I won't be able to take it if someone, especially a stranger says those cruel words to me...and I... I broke their fragile little hearts.

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A couple of weeks have passed and I didn't see him again...Johnny was nowhere to be found. Kenneth never visited me again too until one day...
"Hellie..." I jump in surprise as a manly voice calls me and feel as if my heart stopped beating.
"Johnny!" I beam excitedly only to feel sorry both for myself and for Kenneth who is standing by the door now when I looked at his direction. He just smiles faintly and continues to walk towards me. The bruises on his face are less visible now.
"K-Ken..."
"I...just came to say sorry..." He begins as he hands me a bouquet of flowers.
"I'm the one who should be saying sorry, Ken..." I say and he just sits on the chair beside my bed, I notice that he is holding a paperbag but he didn't hand it to me like I expected and instead, he just brings it on the floor.
"It's my fault Hellie. I should've controlled myself."
"Ken..." I reach for his hand only to frown as I notice a gold ring on his ring finger. He looks at me and clears his throat.
"Helena... There are things that you deserve to know..."
"Ken?!"
"Six months ago, you had an accident that left you in a comatause condition..."
"S-stop reminding me about it Ken...I'm tired of that same old story..."
"Hellie, you have to listen to me carefully. I know why you're feeling what you're feeling for Johnny..."
"W-what are you saying?!" I ask in shock as I look at his face.
"Hellie...Johnny is not who you think he is..."
"W-What are you saying?!" I repeat the question and push myself away from him. Kenneth reaches for my hand and I can't help but stare at the ring on his finger.
"I didn't visit you not just because your family won't allow me, Hellie... A lot has happened that you...don't quite remember."
I look at him in disbelief and pulls my hand away from his.
"You didn't visit me because...you still can't stand for us Ken! Don't make it seem like I'm the one to be blamed here! Don't talk as if I'm cheating on you with Johnny!!! He's nothing but a stranger to me! I waited for you! I looked for you right from the moment I woke up!"
"Hellie, calm down..."
"Th-That ring on your finger... I don't remember you having a ring on that finger since you divorced Emma!!! A-Are you..." I gulp and feel as if my insides are turning, making me want to puke as I look at his guilty face.
"Did you get back together while I was unconscious?!" I finally ask and he stares at me with guilt in his eyes.
"I'm sorry, Hellie...It isn't Emma... I'm married to..." He says and I suddenly lose control and hit him on the face.
"You, idiot!!! How can you do this to me?!"
"Helena...please calm down. I know you wouldn't understand but you have to listen to what I have to say... This is for your own good..."
"For my own good?! You!!! You arse almost fucked me on this bed two weeks ago!!! It may be true that I led you on! But still, you were married!!! You are married...!" I'm crying so hard now feeling like a fool, feeling so stupid.
"You deserve all of Johnny's punches!!! You moron!!! How can you do this to me?! I loved you Ken!!! I loved you!!! I dropped out of the University for you! I disobeyed my parents and accepted the hatred of the whole society because of you!!!" All the hurt I kept to nyself ever since I gave up half of my life just just to be with Ken come rushing down in me now. I wasted so much for him, I gave up so much for him...and now, he's telling me he's married?! He got married while I was unconcsious! He was cheating while I was struggling for my own life in this hospital!