Have you ever loved someone so much that it hurts? It hurts every night they sleep near you , it just hurts everytime you see them. It hurts even when they kiss you , even when they touch you , but it's a pain that you'd give anything in the world to have again and you just feel like you won't stop until the pain it's so strong that you have to surrender into each other souls? Into each other destiny , and...live it? Live your dream? Probably not , probably , you have no ideea what I am talking about. If i would have read this words two years ago , i would have no idea what kind of person can feel a love like that either , or what kind of love can that love be. But it all changed , it all did when I met Ellie. Ellie and her warm soul smiling to you through her rosy red lips you just cannot help yourself to not fall for? You just cannot help youself to not fall for the way they form what she says . And those eyes? You look into those eyes and feel you're deep , somewhere in the ocean , and I bet she didn't even know how much she spoke through her eyes , how many unsaid words she would tell you. You could look into her eyes and they would whisper to you all the words she never had the courage to say..
She was full , full of life. She was living her dream each day and I don't think I have ever seen her beeing sad. Well until what happened had happen , of course.
It all started on a rainy night.I was sleeping , trying to forget all that was going on in my life , trying to drown with ireal dreams who would make me feel good , again. Suddenly a hard knock on the door woke me up and I lazily made my way toward the door obviously annoyed. I looked at the clock. It was 3AM.
"I'm coming!" i screamed to the insistent person who kept on knocking.
When i oped the door , there she was soaked to the skin , crying.
"He's gone." she whispered through tears."He's gone forever , i am never going to see him again."
She was in her pijamas and barefoot. I immediatly grabbed her hand and dragged her into my house then ran to the kitchen hoping there was one more cup of tea left on the coocker stove. She sat on the sofa with a lost look on her face.
"I can't believe i am never going to see him again , he just vanished."she said with a hoarse voice.
I gave her the cup of tea and sat near her , rubbing her back , then tightly hugged her.
"It's okay baby , it's ok." I kept telling her trying to hold my tears too as hard as I could.
"Zayn , I lost him , this is my fault." She looked at me .
"No , this is not your fault , we all have lost him." I lastly whispered and kissed her cheeck , got up and stared preapring another pot of tea.
I looked at her again. Gosh , poor her. I have never seen her crying since that night. I don't even know if she did. She was always the tought person but this time i think it was because it took her a long time to actually process what was happening. It all seemed so ireal , it all seemed gotten out from a nightmare , her most terrible nightmare, OUR most terrible nightmare. There was the most beautiful girl , the most smiling girl , the most ALIVE person i have ever known seating on my couch , shaking , half alive. I took a look closer and noticed she actually wasn't wearing her pijamas.. I came near her to notice she was wearing a dress , a short red dress.
"Ellie , no Ellie , no..."i whispered.
She looked at me and forced the fakest smile I have ever seen to say through pain:
"It smells like him." then burst into tears again.
