Chapter one
A new day was eventually going to find me. Even if its not what I wanted. The night before was so awful I didn't want to start another day all over again. Last night I got the worst beating of my life, from my mother. Her breath smelled of whiskey and old cigarettes. She wasn't like this before my father and baby sister passed away. She was very depressed. She made it clear every single day that it was all my fault. I couldn't blame her for feeling that way, as I did blame myself.
We were all on a family vacation when I was the young age of fourteen. My mother was resting in their room of our large suite. My father, sister and I were watching television and got bored. We decided to go and explore the outside world of the island of Hawaii. My father slipped into their room and told my mother we were heading out.
We all packed into our "family" suburban and headed off to see what we can find. We ended up on a deserted part of the island. We were standing on a very high cliff, watching as the waves crashed against the jagged rocks beneath us. It was so serene. Its was of course my idea to go and jump off the cliff. My father thought against it but because both my sister and I were so persistent on jumping he reluctantly agreed.
My father went first, he wanted to be sure that it was perfectly safe. My sister decided that she would jump with him, she was scared and didn't want to do it by herself. I couldn't blame her she was only ten. So they held hands and counted to three and then plummeted downward into the clear blue waters.
From this distance the water looked like it would be deep enough, but that was the worst assumption that I had ever made in my life. I could of course see their bodies laying there in the water. I didn't notice how close the were to the surface, until both of their bodies floated to the top, faces pointed down. I screamed. Not knowing what I was going to do. If I was to jump whose to say that I would have not also drowned or smacked my head on something at the bottom.
I looked around for someone anyone. No one was around. I looked around in horror trying to find something, anything to do. I looked down and saw that there was a deeper part of the water close to where their bodies were floating, lifelessly. I ran to the front of the cliff and angled myself towards the deeper part and jumped. The jumping would have been extremely exhilarating if it wasn't for the fact that I was trying to save my father and sister.
As my body entered the water, my toes lightly touched the waters bottom. I moved my arms and legs so fast, until I was on the surface. When I took a deep breath I headed over to where they were. I went straight to my sister.
"Kari?" I whispered as I flipped her over. I screamed when I saw her lifeless face. Her face was frozen in a state of fright. I sobbed into her neck and then swam over to where my fathers body was bobbing.
"Daddy?" I cried, hoping that he was okay. When I flipped his body over, slowly, I saw the same look on his face. I cried harder. What was I going to do now? I saw that there were two surfers about ten feet away. They were sitting on their boards with the legs dangling in the water. I screamed at them for help. They heard me. As soon as they saw me there with two bodies floating and bobbing next to me they both laid down on the boards and headed towards me.
After an ambulance was called, so was my mother. Back then I wasn't scared to death of her. We cried together in unison that night. But something in her snapped the next day as the realization of what happened hit her hard. And from that day forward my life was a living hell.
Did I deserve everything I got for taking away her family from her? Yes, yes I believe that I did get what I deserved. In my mind I might deserve more. Last night she did get a little carried away with a hunters buck knife. She started at my toes moving upwards to my legs. She stopped right in the middle of my thigh and shoved in deep. I screamed into my arm, knowing well enough that if someone had heard my screams she would kill me.
