MISS U DAD
I miss you a lot dad.
Sometimes I feel sad.
Why did you leave me?
Why didn't you stayed longer.
So you could see.
That I've grown up and now stronger.
How you wanted me to be.
Independent and free.
Not depending on other.
But I always needed a father.
To stand beside me.
Who could oversee,
Every step I take.
Every move I make.
Sometimes I can't believe you are no more.
I think that you're just at the store.
Buying chocolates and candy.
And a bottle of brandy.
Which you would have later in the night.
Sometimes I imagine the sight.
You sitting beside me and would advice.
On how to be humble and how to be nice.
Like you always use to be.
Is what I use to see.
Many new things taught by you.
Which otherwise I never knew.
But dad I was not done learning.
After you life started turning.
It was not the same.
Gone was all the fame.
When I was known by everyone.
When I always had fun.
Had to grow up and mature.
Have to think of the future.
Many sacrifices I've had to make.
Many decisions I've had to take.
Many smiles I've had to fake.
Many things I've kept at stake.
But I don't regret anything.
I think at least I am having something.
To keep going on and not stop.
Never needing a mop.
Life continues and you have to live.
Many things you take many things you give.
But I never wanted you to go.
But I now just want you to know.
I really miss you dad.
I wish you could be here.
I want to tell you so much.
So much I want to share.
LAST THOUGHT
Sitting here alone.
Looking down at the rope.
Lost all the hope.
Lost all the faith.
Probably breathing my last few breaths.
