Please... Please come back.
Not just you. Everything.
I want everything to come back. This.. Emptiness... It's worse now that you're gone... so please come back. I need you to breathe- to be alive. To be myself. All this, it's all new and strange.
Michael- please come back. I need you. You're the only one I trust to hold the fragile thing that is the circumference of my emotions. You held it all. You understood. I don't think you know how much that really meant. I could never crack, never chip if I was with you. I could breath easy. I could be me. I didn't have to struggle to get the words out. I never had to tiptoe like a bunny near a pack of wolves. So please come back.
Mia- You were the one who reassured me. You cared so much for me in my darkest hour and never told me that what I felt was wrong. You are the closest person I have to a doppelgänger. You were the best. It hurt to see you slowly move away. It was aching every night when I talked to my stars knowing I'd never see the same constellations ever again. It was so hard. So please come back. I need you.
Kelley- My sister... I love you so much. You were the closest thing I think I had to a mother for a while now. Now you're gone and it's like a rather large hole has just been ripped through my soul. I feel like everyone that left took a part of me with them. I need your hugs, your warmth and your calm reassurance- not to mention your inspiration to keep going. I need you... So please come back home.
Often I just gave my feelings to others to reassure that they'll be okay... But now it's finally my time to be selfish- time for me to ask for help.
Possibly the most strange person to come back that I need... Is me.
I need you back. The old you. Not the new social you. You knew just what to say, just what to do, and just how to make it to the next day. You knew how to fall and fly thereafter. I don't know how to do that now. Every interaction is like a new scar on my wrist placed by a false self. It hurts to smile. It hurts to go on- Every. Single. Day. So please come back.
...please...
...Come back....
Before I lose you...
