Save me or Destroy Me

coming together

i sit with him like that for three hours straight , him just staring at the wall and me just holding on to him. Making my decisng myion i climb off the bed and walk to his bathroom(connected to his room). i turn the shower on to a warm temperture. i come back to see him in the same spot. calming i pull him off the bed. I close my eyes undress him then ut him in the shower . i leave him in thier and go to the kicthen grabing cleaning suppilies and trash bag. i run u to his room and throw away all the garbage after the floor is clear i scrub everything with bleach and pick him out some shorts, underwear and a whitebeater. when the  water stops i open the door to see him standing thier in a towel. i walk to the sink grab his tooth brush and toothpaste and brush his teeth for him. i walk to the bed room grab his clothes and put them on the sink.i close the door giving him privacy. sighing and wiping away tears i clean his room till it looks spotless. I go check on him when i dont hear a sound and see him staring at the mirror . i inspect his fingers and clean each one after i set him on the bed. after one last glace i head down stairs to the kicthen. When io see my best friend kenzie she looks at me sadly and opens her arms I snap like a dam. I run and sob my heart out in her arms  letting out all the pain, sadness,heartache, lonlyness, and hurt. I wie my nose saying im ok and fix four ham sandwhich's. i grab the whole jug of milk and a tall glass of water and head upstairs. " Eli im so sorry i didn't mean to hurt you, i love you so much your my everything, my sun, my moon , my wolf, my bestfriend, my boyfriend, my diary, my kids father, my first love, my last love and my mate. i just needed time i was so hurt when i felt you cheat, but i real-realize that i didnt even come to you and try to ask you what  happened i freaked out and hurt  yuo in the process and i never wabted to hurt you especially like this . please baby just talk to me, look at me, blink do somthing to let me know you still love me, that you still love what we had, no scratch that what we have!" i cry tears dripping down my face. when im down i set the food and drinks on the table looking at him anfter a few minutes i whisper "Eli please". when he doesnt look at me i slide on the bed curled up and cry. i gasp when i feel strong arms wrap around me and sparks going off . i see Eli looking at me with so much sadness in his eyes he croaks " i love you". i sit up and kiss my as hard as i can with so much assion and love and heart in it. when i break away he puts his hand on my stomach and whisper to the babies he's so sorry, just the sight of it makes me cry even harder. i lay in his arms when i feel my clothes become soaked i frown and blush embarresed thinkign i peed on myself because truth be told i really had to go but i scream and hit Eli. When he looks at me i yell " my water just broke!"