Tainted Love

Chapters Eighteen and Nineteen

Chapter Eighteen

A quick prang of guilt shot through her as they approached the lake edge. Didn't he deserve to know what kind of woman he was getting involved with? She knew without a doubt that telling him would ruin everything. What man would want to know that the woman they were about to make love to had been with so many other men and been paid for it. Her heart clenched even though she hated the thought of lying to him she knew she couldn't tell him. Didn't she deserve a little happiness in her life? After everything she had been through why could she not have the one thing she wanted more than anything else.

They reached the bank. Dean climbed out. She smiled as she watched his muscular thighs flex as he heaved himself up onto the bank. He turned, offering her his hand. She hesitated. He was so magnificent. Way too good for the likes of her. Reaching up she placed her hand in his. He pulled her up onto the bank beside him. She flopped down onto the grass unsure if her legs would actually hold her. As much as she was used to being naked she found it a little unnerving now there was nothing for her to hide behind. This was real with was no more pretence. He dropped down beside her and turned to face her. She looked at him through lowered lashes. He smiled, brushing a lock of her hair back behind her shoulder. His eyes told her everything she needed to know. She could still see the carefree young boy she had grown to trust..., and love. Her body quivered, only now he was a man that still wanted her after everything she had put him through. It all felt surreal, like a dream that she would suddenly awaken from.

He brushed his thumb lightly across her lips. A single tear trickled from the corner of her eye and rolled down her cheek. He brushed it away tenderly. A deep crease appeared on his brow.

"Are you sure you want this," he asked softly.

She nodded smiling hesitantly. He leant over and kissed her lightly on the lips then drew back his eyes searching hers. The urge to have her was getting stronger by the minute but he had to be sure she was ready. He trailed his fingers lightly along her collar bone and down between her breasts. She tipped her head back, pushing her breast forward. His fingers brushed across her nipple and it peaked instantly. He gently rolled it between his thumb and forefinger. She let out a soft moan, arching her back, offering herself to him. He lowered his lips sucking her nipple into his mouth, teasing its hardened tip with his tongue. A small whimper escaped her lips as he released the first and gave the second the same attention. He was determined to take his time and savour every tantalising inch of her.

The intensity of his touch sent heat coursing though out her body. Doubt began to creep in. Did she dare give herself to someone so completely and let go of all restraint? He released her nipple and trailed his hand across her stomach and down over her abdomen. Her already sensitive skin flared with heat as he moved his hand in slow tantalizing circles. She drew in a sharp breath as his fingers reached the small narrow strip of neatly trimmed hair. He smiled, moving his finger between her soft folds. She gave a long groan and willingly let her legs drop apart inviting him to delve deeper. He took her lips in his. His erection throbbed with impatience but he was determined to take it slow. Her body trembled under his touch as he teased her to the brink of release. Willingly she gave herself to him as a deep need to be possessed overwhelmed her. He slipped his fingers inside her moving them slowly drawing her upward. Her body reached heights that she had never dared believe existed. Her head rocked from side to side as she gave into the intense sensations now racing through her body. Unable to stand it any longer she began plead with him to fill the desperate urgency growing inside her. Her hands glided down over his chest and abdomen tracing the lines of his hard taut muscles finally closing around his solid erection. He let out a tortured groan. Both of them were now desperate to have what they had both been trying so hard to avoid. She smiled drawing her hand along his length. His body tensed with every stroke of her hand. He was now fighting to maintain control. Flicking her tongue across his hardened nipples he let out a deep groan. He reached down stilling her hand. Rolling her over on her back and with a hurried urgency he pushed her legs apart with his knee and entered her with a quick powerful thrust. She cried out, finally feeling the power and strength that up to now she had only dreamt about. Willingly she accepted everything he had to give as he thrust into her time and time again. She raised her hips meeting every one of his strokes urging him deeper their bodies now moving in perfect harmony. His jaw clenched as another long groan escaped her lips and she felt herself slipping over the edge. Crying out his name she frantically clutched him, her body riding a wave of pure ecstasy. She felt him stiffen as he gripped her hips and thrust into her releasing himself deep inside her.