The Andes

Chapter 12 James/Violette

 I was very happy to find the house empty when I made it there. That satisfaction turned into anger as Violette silently walked in the house a few moments later.

“Hey, James.” She said monotonous. She didn't look at me so she couldn't see my anger but she seemed to sense it because she looked up and over at me.

Violette stopped where she was when she realized that she was caught. “James-”

“Don't. What were you thinking? I heard your conversation. You allowed him to ask questions? What did he ask? What did you say?” I pinched the bridge of my nose as I braced myself on the island in the kitchen and stared at her while doing so. Quieter now, “Does...does he...?”

“No, he doesn't know. He doesn't even suspect. You don't understand, James!” Violette exclaimed.

My eyes flickered. “Understand what? That you could have let out our secret? That you have feelings for this human?”

Her mouth popped open in shock. “I do not have feeling for Adam!” She said defensively, which told me differently. “And I'm offended that you think I'd destroy us like that.”

We sat in silence, both of us steaming.

“He didn't even ask me anything relatively close to it. He just asked me about myself. My likes, my dislikes. You know stuff friends talk about.”

I sighed. “I told you once and I'll tell you a thousand times if I have to-”

“I know, humans aren't great company to keep” she interrupted, “but he's different. He...” She trailed off not knowing the right word.

I was losing my anger and a lot of it evaporated when I realized what it was with Violette's obsession with this human. “He makes you feel human again.”

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“He makes you feel human again.”

I stared at James about to defend myself but I had to keep it in mind. Was that what it was? I stared down at the ground as I thought. I didn't think it was. Adam was just different. And yes he brought out something that no one else did and I guess I was more human with him than anything or anybody but I don't think that's what it is. I told James this.

“I don't know, Violette. It sounds like either you like how it feels to be human or you like the feelings he gives you, which would indicate an attraction.” He came out of the kitchen, walked passed me standing in the hall and sat on the couch in the living room. He patted the spot next to him and I took a seat. I took a deep breath. “Violette, this is risky. I don't want to tell you what to do especially since nothing has happened but it's just best to stop it right here. What if you do have feelings for him?” He saw I was about to argue and he rushed out, “And I know that if you do have feelings for him, you aren't acknowledging it. It's okay to. But it isn't okay to act on it. What if you were to fall in love with this human? What would you do? Keep him till he dies, like a pet? Would you...” James cleared his throat. “Would you change him? Would you be able to?”

I stared at him, lost and overwhelmed. What if I were to develop feelings for Adam and did fall in love with him? Would I be able to make a decision on if to let him go and live his life or would I be selfish enough to keep him? To ask him to live eternity with me? What would he think if he found out about us? Would I have to tell him eventually if I did have feelings for him?

My chest started to ache. “I don't know, James.”

James nodded. “Exactly. That's why it's best to stop it.”

But I don't want to, I wanted to say. I couldn't though. The lump in my throat and tightening ache in my chest stopped me from finishing the conversation. I just got up and walked upstairs to my room.

I could see what James was saying. That's what hurt. I saw his point and understood completely. To fall in love with this human would be a huge burden and might not plan out how we'd expect.

I wasn't saying I loved Adam or that I even had any feelings for him but what if one day I did? I had to reluctantly admit that if I was a human....if we met in a different life...I would have been head over heels for him. He was handsome, funny, and treated me with care. That's all I ever wanted when I was human. For someone to look at me with soft eyes, for someone to take care of me.

Now I had it but it was too late. I couldn't have it. Was it so bad to steal what couldn't ever be mine; that one thing I wanted but was forbidden?

Author's Note: Sorry it's so short. Trust me as I'm writing this, I'm in the process of writing the next chapter which should be longer. I don't really plan on how long my chapters are, I just pick out if the information should be in this chapter or the next and which characters should experience it and so on and so forth. Hope you like it!