Why does nothing feel fun anymore? I play a lot of instruments, but I only like to play piano and guitar. Everyone tries to keep me from playing piano but I can play guitar in my room. Like I've been playing violin for 5 years and I dont like it... i want to go into my guitar and drum things.
Why can't i be happy, why can't I be better at music, why can't I like math without being called a "teacher pet".
Why can't I go home.
Why can't I find a partner.
Why can't I be nice.
Why can't I like myself.
Why.
Why do I want to die and also be immortal.
Why am I so stupid.
Why can't I be myself.
Why can't I sit still.
Why can't I stop chewing on my sleeves and necklaces.
Why can't I sleep.
Why am I so weird.
Why can't I like what I like.
Why can't my dad be nice.
Why can't I be happy.
Why do I have to be perfect.
Why do I have to be so hard on myself.
Why can't I be like her, why can't i be like him.
Why can't i play as good as her or him.
Why do I have to have a job to be able to live.
Why does everyone hate me.
Why do I hate almost everyone.
Why does our government suck.
Why do I suck.
Why can't i be normal.
I want my mom, but I don't feel like she's my mom, she feels like a friend that I've just known for a while, not a mom.
Why.
Why?
I want to go home. Really bad. But I just ill just have to try harder right... right?
But... what's it all for anyway. Why can't i just be... good enough?
