Love at First Sight, Sight on First Love

Only Part

I don't believe in love at first sight, I am a very realistic person and I'm old. Tapos na ako sa jittery feelings, butterflies in the stomach and the like.

As a tired person who worked more than 8 hours per day and 40 hours a week, I just want to sip my Burnt Creme Latte and stare blankly at anything outside the coffee shop's window. When I saw him, slow motion kahit nagjojogging siya, we locked eyes. Oh my! My heart that stopped reacting to anything long ago, started skipping a beat. 

I don't know what to describe him aside from perfection. Perfect in my eyes, black slick back hair, jogging suit: sport sando and shorts, running shoes and a pair of very kind eyes. Oh my! I know he was awed too when he laid his eyes on me, not because I'm pretty to look at but I look stressed and out of life?. 

Holy Shit! Just when God gives me someone I might like but then I look like this.

He passed through and I feel sorry. I looked down, down to the floor. Sorry for my overworked self and sorry for my first love at first that died. Oh no! I might cry. Life has not been good lately, I'm not growing professionally and financially. Pressure from all fronts, since I'm already 30 and I am still not established. I don't have anything for myself besides loans etc etc. I self-loathe especially when I'm alone but become a different kind of person when I'm working and talking to other people.

"One Caramel Macchiato." someone said at the counter.

That voice is nice, it feels calm and soothing. My head was still down because I am controlling my tears, emotions and waves of negative feelings overwhelming me when someone asks me.

"Can I share a seat?". It is the same nice voice I heard. Dito pala niya napiling umupo  

I silently sighed and agreed because I know I will leave soon. Unconsciously, I looked up and saw the same pair of beautiful eyes. And my eyes welled up, then I cried.

-FIN-