Talking Terms

Prologue

If you asked me why I like Hideon Ronan Giordano, I can tell you without a blink that it's because of how gorgeous he is. That kind smile, soft voice, beautiful eyes... everything about him is gorgeous.

But if you really want to know further, deeply, why I liked him since I was in high school, you may need to make me a coffee and sit with me for hours and hear me yap about how many reasons why I like him.

I can start on the very first time I realized I really liked him. Or maybe that I was actually in love with him?

It was the worst day of my life, you wouldn't think it would be a time for me to think about love and all.

Pero sabi nga nila, you can't stop it when it happens.

"Hey, Cel."

Maybe heavens hated me so much today dahil bakit kakabukas ko lang ng pinto sa long-time crush ko when I look like a wreck?

I've been crying for hours now, I bet my eyebags are so big and my face is so puffy. I was holding a big tub of ice cream, wearing my two-day old pajama... I haven't showered for days.

Pero nandito siya. May dalang isang paper bag na siguro ay puno ng pagkain. He looks so good with his black hoodie and grey sweatpants, amoy na amoy ko nanaman nag pabango niya.

My old self would've been so happy seeing him here. But my mother just died so I am not my old self right now.

"Hey, how are you?" He asked softly as he followed me when I sat back up to the sofa.

I have been binging Modern Family for hours now, hoping I can atleast diistract myself with my favorite show.

Pero mas umiiyak lang ako nang makita kung gaano kasaya sila Claire at Phil. I won't be able to have that big and happy family again.

"You need anything, Cel?"

Parang nakalimutan ko na nandito si Kuya Hiro.

Sorry cursh, saka na kita landiin kapag okay na ako. Puppy love ka lang naman sabi ni kuya.

Ikaw ang Harry sa Cho ko, hindi ang Dylan sa Haley ko. Meaning, hindi tayo endgame.

"Nasa taas si Kuya Sean, Kuya." Sambit ko habang nanatiling nakatingin sa tv.

I heard him sigh as he remained standing just beside me, "Oh, okay. I'll just bring him food. Si Kuya Jett?"

"He's with dad, inaayos iyong funeral."

Natahimik siya roon. Baka naguilty dahil nabring-up iyong bagay na gusto kong kalimutan.

Okay lang naman, cute naman siya.

"Oh, okay. I'm sorry, Cel."

Napatawa ako, "Ba't ka nagsosorry, Kuya? Ikaw ba nagdrive nung kotse na bumangga kay Mommy?"

His eyes widened, mukhang nagulat sa biglang pajoke ko. Masyado nang late nung narealize ko kung gaano ka weird at awkward ang ginawa ko.

Ano ba yan, pwede ba alis kana Kuya? Nahihiya na ako!

"Akyat lang ako, hah? Iiwan ko ang pagkain sa kitchen kapag nagutom ka."

Tumango ako nang hindi siya tinitignan para hindi na humaba ang usapan.

Hindi ka naman nandito para sa akin, Kuya Hiro. Okay lang. Balik nalang ako sa Modern Family ko.

A fews minutes after, I was tired of watching the show. Sumasakit na rin ang ngipin ang ulo ko sa ice cream na mukhang patunaw na.

Tumayo ako at naglakad papuntang kitchen para ilagay sa ref ang ice cream. I was craving for something savory to cleanse my palette.

Madyado akong nahihiya para buksan ang iniwan na pagkain ni Kuya Hiro.