I tried to tell myself it was nothing.
A passing thought. A moment that would fade if I ignored it long enough.
But you stayed.
You stayed in my mind when I wasn’t inviting you, in the quiet parts of my day where no one else reaches. I started noticing how everything seemed to orbit back to you—songs, places, random thoughts that somehow carried your shape. It’s unsettling how naturally you fit there, like you were always meant to.
I watch the smallest details about you and they imprint themselves without effort. The way you exist without asking for attention, the way your presence lingers even after you’re gone. You don’t try to be captivating, and that’s exactly why you are. It’s the restraint, the calm, the certainty—you make people feel something they can’t name, and that scares them.
I won’t pretend this is light. It isn’t.
It’s not loud obsession or reckless desire. It’s quieter, deeper—rooted. The kind that makes me wonder how someone can unknowingly take up so much space in another person’s thoughts. The kind that doesn’t need constant contact to survive. You’re there even in absence.
I don’t want to possess you. I don’t want to trap this feeling or force it into words it can’t fit. I just need you to know that you matter to me more than I ever planned. That my attention isn’t accidental. That if I seem distant sometimes, it’s only because feeling this much requires control.
This isn’t a crush I’ll get over.
It’s an awareness I can’t unlearn.
And whether you ever feel the same or not—
you’ve already changed something in me, just by being you
YOU ARE READING
Broken angel
Poetry🦋A collection of poems🦋 written by me about how I feel day to day. About how I want to feel. About times of hardships and betrayal. About tears and heartaches. About undeserved love. About trust. About mistakes that currently Define me. About need...
