March 11, 2026
12:02 AM
Yesterday, I just slept the whole day. Attended class at 8:30 AM, was nervous 'cuz I wasn't aware that there will be an oral recitation. Thanks to my brain who actively participated, I managed to answer the question. After class, I slept again and woke up at 4 PM to check my second class, however the instructor was busy so I slept again. Woke up at 7 PM. I forgot what I did. Watched a movie "Once We Were Us" with my girlfriend at 8 PM, ate instant spaghetti and boiled egg at 9 PM. Ended the movie with tears at 12 AM. Now, typing this diary while listening to music with my girlfriend.
My girlfriend's sulking 'cuz I wasn't available the whole day, which I understand. She have everything right to be sad & mad. I made her say she missed me though, haha. Am I bad? Well... Anyway, I feel empty. I wanna cry but at the same time, I won't. I don't know what to do. I don't know what I've been doing. I've been abusing my health badly for a week now. I kept on planning things to make my lifestyle better, but I always end up curling at my bed and sleep. I wanna make myself better, but I seem to always do the opposite. I'm so disappointed at myself. I just wanna get through this phase and live better.
I hope that today when I woke up, I get to finally follow what I've always plan on doing. That would be all for my yesterday's ganap. I'll write again later before 12 AM. Good night, Maria. 🩵
