tomorrow is the day im getting high to let you go, the day after im burning everything youve left behind that sccreams your name that i no longer value. i keep thinking back to how we were, the good and the bad, the words and the actions, me and you. i know this will pass, no mutter how much it feels like it wont.
im fed up with you eating away at my brain, my peace, me and anyhing mine in general.
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ive been preparing things to burn for about a month now, tho even though i kept on finding more afterwards. mostly, ive found the schematics from your "rocnikovka" i helped you with. wasnt toi happy about that.
i obviously kept the computer, the speakers, i kept the 3d printed xalibration cats tho those i will be throwing out as well. there are better, kinder things to display on my shelves. i will give away the statues from your father, unfortunately. i no longer have the space for them and no good things will come out of me keeping them.
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i also kept the notes you refused to read after our break up, despite burning the book. i downloaded all chats i could possibly find, that unfortunately reminded me of the deeper issues weve had and did not resolve.
tho i am not truly ashamed of my actions, i am sorry for you. im not that sorry about what i have done, because in the end, i believe the weight of what happened in those nearly 11 months was bigger than me getting back at you despite not doing truly anything in the week we spoke again.
i can not wait to see you at the prom night of your graduation. im going there for my friend, of course, but seeing you is both terrifying and a little treat to know youre alive and well. i hope you bring yourself a nice date - ideally a girl you so often made me out to be.
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memos3 (ndrw)
Randomthese are for me to keep track of my vents and whatnot from a relationship that lasted officially from october 3rd of 2024, until august 27th 2025. we met on september 13th for the first time and due to unfortunate conditions i prioritized the small...
