Other mother

I remember

I first heard the news

I ran outside and cryed all night

until I felt so loose

I remember the night sky

stars yelling down to me

baby please don't cry

then I remember

I couldn't control my anger

I beat a tree with a stick

until it felt like it was in danger

then I went back in

no tears on my face

they say bri you ok?

I ran as I hid my away!

why do you insist on making me cry

your lucky I'm not dead too

I wanted a clean suicide

surprise! does it surprise you?

you didnt see that one coming?

even though I asked for the pills

that day she blew it off by laughing

I couldn't even say how I feel

I remember

a deep pain in my heart

so bad, heavy, and dark

felt like a black hole forming

like I'm being ripped apart

nobody can stop crying

at her funeral I couldn't go in

too many sad faces

and my tears, trying to hold them in

I know she wasn't my mom

but hell

she was something like it

I wish I had the chance to say to.. tell her goodbye

I guess all I can do now

is look up don't wonder why

know that I haven't lost her

and send love through the sky