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Izuku is emotionally and physically exhausted.

He woke up and went to school early, so he could easily throw out his breakfast, he doesn't know how he got to this point, he just needed something he could control.

Now he can't even chew gum without thinking about how many calories are in it.

He just wants it to end.

Why does he have to be quirkless?

It's just not fair. He feels like he's stuck in an endless loop. Wake up, go to school, get bullied, go home, lie about what he has eaten, cut himself, and stay up late online until he eventually falls asleep.

He hasn't even had the energy to do the things that he used to enjoy doing anymore.

He just knows he won't make it to the end of the school year. He's interrupted from his thoughts by the sound of the bell ringing.

He approaches his desk, and sees the derogatory messages on his desk, tears well up in his eyes.

He's used to his desk being vandalized, but it never gets any easier. Deep down he still hopes that maybe things will change, but he knows they won't.

The teacher enters the classroom and stands at his desk, "You guys are all third-years now, so it's time to for you all to start to seriously think about your future. I would hand out these future career forms, however.. I already know that you all  want to be heroes!" He declares to the class. The students in the classroom immediately show off their quirks, until the teacher eventually stops them. "Yes, you all have wonderful quirks, but you know it's against the rules to use them in school!" He postulates.

Katsuki interrupt him "Hey teach! Don't lump me in with these extras! I'm the real deal, and these guys will be lucky to end up as sidekicks to some fucking shitty ass D lister! He shouts.

"Get over yourself, Katsuki!" One student says.

"Let's go, I'll fight you all at once!" Katsuki says, his voice just as arrogance as always.

"You've got impressive test results, Bakugou, you of course must be aiming for U.A. High school." The teacher says.

Katsuki smirks and jumps onto his desk "Obviously I am! I aced every mock exam! I'm the only person in this entire school who deserves to go to U.A.! I'll be even better than All Might himself!" He boasts.

When the teacher reveals that Izuku also wants to go to U.A. the class bursts into laughter.

"Is that a joke!? One student says.

"There's no way he can get into the hero course without a quirk!" Another student adds.

Izuku's face flushes with embarrassment "Th-that's not completely true! It's never happened before, but.." he starts to say, being completely honest, he's stopped believing in himself anyways, it doesn't matter what he thinks though because Katsuki launches an explosion into his desk.

"ARE YOU FUCKING SERIOUS DEKU?! FORGET THE SHITTY QURIKS! YOU'RE COMPLETELY FUCKING QUIRKLESS!! DO YOU SERIOUSLY THINK YOUR FUCKING WORTHLESS EXISTENCE COULD POSSIBLY MAKE IT INTO U.A.!?" Katsuki shouts.

Izuku stumbles backwards, eventually hitting a wall "Wa- wait, no, Kacchan.. I promise that I don't think I can compete with you! I promise!It's just... I've wanted to be a hero for as long as I can remember.. and I guess that I just want to try.." Izuku pleads, desperately trying to calm Katsuki down.

However hearing this just made Katsuki more angry "TRY!? FUCKING TRY!? FUCKING TRY WHAT!? THE FUCKING ENTRANCE EXAM!? ARE YOU SERIOUSLY TAKING THE FUCKING EXAM TO TRY!? WHAT THE FUCK CAN YOU EVEN DO!?" Katsuki screams at him.

Eventually the lesson starts, the teacher goes on about something.

Izuku tries to pay attention to the lesson, he truly does, starting ADHD medication was supposed to help him focus, but it's hard for him focus when his mind is so fuzzy, either from how little he's been sleeping, the deficiency of important nutrients in his body or how loud the classroom is.

He looks at the clock on the wall, counting down the seconds for the school day to end.

He just wants to get home can lock himself in his room and rot in his bed for hours, he wants to go to sleep and never wake up.

However he knows that it won't be that easy, he knows that before he's able to get home, he's going to have to go through getting bullied by Katsuki and his friends again.

After what feels like an eternity the school day finally finishes. Izuku begins to pack up his things, just as he's picking up his notebook he hears someone.

"What the fuck do you think you're doing, Deku!? We're not done!" Katsuki sneers.

"What's that, is it his diary or something?" Tesaki jests.

"C-come on guys, please give it back!" Izuku practically begs.

Instead of listening to his pleas and giving Izuku back his precious hero notes, Katsuki blows it up.

"Why?" Izuku asks, even though he already like knows the answer, Katsuki is a fucking asshole, of course Izuku would never say this thought out loud, he doesn't want to get beat up.

"The best heroes show great potential early on, I'll be the only student from this fucking shithole of a middle school to become a hero! Everyone will talk about how amazing I am, and I'm not vain, it's a fact that I'm fucking awesome!" Katsuki brags carelessly tosses Izuku's notebook out the window.

"Arrogant.." Kariage says.

Katsuki mockingly puts his hand on Izuku's shoulder burning it with his explosions "Let me dumb it down for you, don't you fucking dare even try getting into U.A." He threatens.

Izuku winces in pain, unbeknownst to Katsuki, the area of Izuku's body he was currently burning was already covered in open wounds from self-harm.

Finally Katsuki and his friends decide their done and start to leave.

"Yikes, classic, just say something already." Kariage expresses

"He's so pathetic, maybe he's finally accepting it, he will never be a hero." Tesaki explains.

Katsuki glances back slightly, not even bothering to turn around completely, "If you want to be a hero just take a fucking swan dive off of the roof, maybe in your next life you'll be a hero!" He ridicules.

Izuku turns around, his eyes full of tears.

Katsuki smirks "Fucking what!?" He taunts, his hands cracking with explosions.

Izuku tenses up, his body trembling, he doesn't want to say anything that sound get in trouble.

Izuku goes to the koi pound to get his notebook, "Now my hero notes are all wet.. honestly why would he say something stupid like that, I mean when I kill my self, I don't want to do it in a way that'll fuck up my corpse too much, I'm down to three options on how to kill myself now, I'm going to overdose, hang myself, or drink some drain cleaner. Overdosing would be my first choice but if it's unsuccessful I'll try one of the others." He thinks to himself.

He eventually heads home, taking a different route than he planned.

He never goes to that underpass.

He never gets attacked by the sludge villain.

He never meets All Might.