Multi Fandom Oneshots

Graham? Gray? or is it Crackle?

Fanart credit to @sko.arts on Instagram *P.S this fic is Gray's thoughts before Carmen tries to rescue him from the Himalayas in S4 Ep 4*

Oh I love it and I hate it at the same time, 

You and I drink the poison from the same vine,

Oh I love it and I hate it at the same time,

Hiding all our sins from the daylight,

From the daylight, running from the daylight,

From the daylight running from the daylight,

Oh I love it and I hate it at the same time    

POV: Gray

Oh I love it and I hate it at the same time,

Part of me misses it. Misses the thrill of stealing. Like the whole world is at my fingertips. Like there's no one to stop me. Like there's no one who can stop me. But the other part of me know it's wrong. Knows that my time on V.I.L.E is over. Or is it? I constantly feel at war with myself. At war with my morals and my conscience. Good or bad? Bad or good? Good or Evil?  Who am I? 

You and I drink the poison from the same vine,

She broke free. Broke from V.I.L.E's chains. She paved her own path, a path that many are sure to follow. But me? No. All I've done is darken people's day. Been the harsh breeze that stings faces. That leaves you wind burnt. Where she, a sunny day in the middle of winter. The warm feeling of the sun on your face. She is a force. A force to be reckoned with. Dangerous but beautiful, inside and out. Yet I'm still a slave to Vile. Even when she was entangled in Vile since the day she was born, she still broke through. Only a year and I find myself doubting. Doubting myself and where I should be. What side? Who I should be. 

Oh I love it and I hate it at the same time,

The good guys or the bad guys? Light or Dark? Selfish or Selfless?

Hiding all of our sins from the daylight,

That's all I've ever done. Hide. Hide from my sins, my demons. That's what Vile taught us. We hid our true names. Trained in the darkness. And came out merely a shell of what we were before. Of who we were before. All for they're benefit. I remember my sins now. I can't remember how it feels to be free of them. To be innocent. To not hide my true self. To not be scared of my true self. To not be afraid of scaring her. Not be afraid of losing her. Not again.

From the daylight, running from the daylight,

I can still feel them. Still feel V.I.L.E's cold hand on my shoulder. Even when my mind was Vile free, I always felt their phantom hand pushing me down, down to the darkness. Back to the darkness. She ripped Vile's hands from off her. Embraced the daylight, the light.  While I'm still running from it. I'm afraid of what would happen if I stop. If I stop running and walk into the daylight. Out of the shade. But what if that won't satisfy me? What if part of me wants more? 

From the daylight, running from the daylight,

What would happen if I stepped into the daylight?

 If I did would I be doing it for me?  Or for her?

Oh I love it and I hate it at the same time,

I love her. But I- I hate myself. I hate myself for not being worthy enough of her. I hate myself for the things I've done. The un-reversible. Hate what V.I.L.E did to her. Hate that they want her back in their clutches. Hate that they wouldn't be satisfied if I came back. Not for acceptance but for her safety. Her life. Everything she stands for might almost be the opposite for me, but I love her for it. I love her, but I hate that we can never be together. Never be eachothers. Not while V.I.L.E and the evil in this world is still around. She will never give up. Never stop fighting. Fighting the darkness. But I am apart of the darkness. Apart of what she has sworn to destroy. And yet for her, I would die. Would let her destroy the darkness. Along with me.

I hear the door open. And I know it's her.