The dark side of the human mind"

"The Wicked Mind"

The beginning of the day started out Normal for Ryan as he woke up from a deep sleep. As he began by wiping his eyes to focus his vision, he remembered  the dream that he had, as it felt so real to him. He could still see the gates of hell and the burning fire that surrounded him as he could still feel the burning sensation on his skin and the smell of burning flesh. He scrambled to his feet, shaking as if it were real. He couldn't get the images out of his head and didn't know why he had such a vivid dream like that, as he brushed the dream from his mind and got dressed he opened his bedroom door to head downstairs for breakfast as he did Ryan Encountered his nightmare coming to life as he opened his bedroom door there in front of him lied the burning pits of hell with nothing but fire engulfing everything in his sight! He screamed to the top of his lungs as if he were being murdered, His dad Tony ran upstairs to see what was happening and saw Ryan curled up in his bed crying, " What's wrong Ryan!?Tony asked, as Ryan Looked at his dad with tears in his eyes he said,"Dad I don't wanna go to Hell, I've been having this dream that Im in Hell and It feels so real and I can't stop thinking about it! As Ryan's dad Tony couldn't believe what his son was going through, he wanted to help his son overcome his nightmare by telling Ryan that he isn't going to go to Hell as long as he put his faith in God and prayed every night before he went to sleep, and ask God to protect him while he slept. Ryan felt a little better with having his dad tell him that, and they both headed downstairs to eat breakfast before leaving the house to go to school. They made their plate and sat down at the table and talked about their plans for the day. Ryan told his dad that he had an exam coming up that he had to study for, Tony asked, " What type of exam are you studying for? Ryan said, "I have to give a speech about the human mind and what makes it unique." His Dad says, "Hmm, Impressive, maybe I can help you out and give you some advice? Ryan replied, " Yeah, that would be great because my mind seems a little messed up. Maybe you can help me fix my mind, haha, as Ryan looks down at his food to take a bite of scrambled eggs. His dad replies, " Well, you're a growing teenager, so your mind is still maturing into a young man,so don't think of yourself that way. Ryan knew his dad was right even though Ryan knew that his mind was much more complicated than his dad knew. Ryan had a darkside to his mind that he kept to himself because if he told anyone, they would surely lock him up in a mental institution. Ryan had a fear of losing control of himself on the people who made fun of him because of him being different. At school, he didn't have any friends, and he stayed to himself because he was shy about talking to others and of the way he looked, so he just kept to himself so he didn't have to worry about making friends. So since he was like that, people thought he was weird and called him an outsider and laughed at him when he walked down the hallways because he always wore the same clothes every day that were bigger than his body. A black t-shirt with black sweat pants, His father was divorced and couldn't really afford nice clothes for Ryan to wear. But as time went on, Ryan had just about enough with how the kids treated him and took matters into his own hands. With having his exam coming up about the human mind and how it works, He was happy about learning more about it, so One day he visited the library to get some more insights on how the human mind works and as he was doing some research he came across an article about how to control and manipulate people with the power of the human mind. Ryan was very fascinated with the details and made notes of everything he read so that he could use his mind to get what he wanted. As Ryan already knew what he wanted. Power,respect, good looks,and to be a good talker and become friends with everyone at his school. He knew that it was going to take time to learn everything, and he was okay with that because he had a faith that this would work for him, So as he gathered all of his research he began packing everything up into his bookbag to head home. Ryan couldn't wait to get started on this project and show everyone what he learned. He was about to have the whole school befriending him. As Ryan returned home, he ran to his room, egar to get started. He locked his door so no one could bother him while he focused on his work. Ryan was learning so much from the research he found at the library that it sent chills down his spin! He began writing out a paper describing how the inner core of the brain works and how there are so many brain cells there are that play different roles in how they function within the mind and how the subconscious controls what we do and how we feel and how were able to rewire our brain just by doing simple tasks like changing how we think how we speak and what we do in our daily lives. Ryan started to read about daily meditation and what it can do for the mind and how it can heal your body, which Ryan knew nothing about until now. He spent about 4 hours working on his exam and finally completed It. He felt accomplished with his work and decided to try it out for himself with what he learned about meditation and how to control the mind by using his thoughts. He followed step by step guides and found a comfortable area on the floor and began to relax his body and focused his attention on his breathing as he let his mind wonder with his thoughts as he brushed away the thoughts in his head and continued to focus on his breathing, about 5 mins In Ryan began to fill a tingling sensation running through his body as this was normal to feel, he then began to think of himself and what he wanted to change in his life as he visualized everything that he wanted he said a prayer for God to help him on his request and as he began to feel as if his body was floating he slowly opened his eyes and realized that he was levitating off the floor of his bedroom. He thought he had fallen asleep during the meditation but came to realize that he wasn't dreaming he was actually levitating! As his excitement got the best of him He lost focus and fell to the ground in pure shock. "I'm excited to tell my father," Ryan said out loud, not knowing if his father would believe him. As Ryan waited patiently for his father to arrive home, he practiced more with his meditation session to see if he could do it again. To his surprise, he was able to do it again once more, and this time, he kept his focus. Thank you, God! thank you! He yelled out! Little did Ryan know that his life was about to change. A few hours passed by, and his father came home in a bad mood, yelling about how he lost his job and how he couldn't pay the mortgage for their home now. Ryan's father wasn't in the mood to talk, which made Ryan upset because It turned his happiness into a depressed state of mind ,which then brought out anger in Ryan which made Ryan say somethings about his dad's job that would take a devastating turn. Ryan slammed his door to his room and yelled out loud, " I hope that basterd that fired you loses everything and gets hit by a bus!! As he said that, Ryan felt guilty but wanted his dad's boss to be punished for firing his dad. Later on that night, they gathered in the living room to eat dinner as they sat down to watch the news. A article came across the screen about a local business that Ryan's dad just got fired from had caught on fire by some rioters and burnt everything down. Tony's eyes got big and were in disbelief, and as he processed everything, he began to laugh out loud, which made me chuckle on the inside because I literally just said I hope he lost everything, I just hope that he doesn't get hit by a bus. I was in shock with my actions and really concerned! Did I trigger something in my mind during my meditation session that brings whatever I say into reality? I didn't say anything to my father about the incident because I didn't want him to know anything or not believe me,or worse yet, think that I'm crazy. So Yeah I just sat there finishing my dinner looking at my dad as he was laughing like a little kid saying, " That's what you get, you dirty basterd. Like Your welcome thinking to myself I did this..what else can I do, I wonder if kids at school will treat me any different tomorrow? Only one way to find out I said to myself as I got ready for bed. As the night went by slowly It was hard for me to sleep so I gazed out my window hoping for a big change to happen the next day at school. As the night lingered on I finally fell asleep, as I woke up the next morning I felt really good! No bad dreams that I recalled. I got up washed off and put on my best clothes that I had which was a nice blue flannel shirt with black jeans and my white shoes. I thought I looked quiet nice. I rode the bus that morning just to change up my routine. To my surprise the bus driver greeted me with "Goodmorning Sir" , as I walked down the isle I had alot of people moving over to share thier seat with me which has never happened for me before so I was surprised. As I finally sat down in the back of the bus I felt like Today was the day I was recognized for who I was. The bus ride went smooth hoping it would be like that for me at school too, as we arrived at the school I was the last one off the bus, As I stepped off I was greeted by the most beautiful girl in the school that I have never spoke with and didn't know her name neither as she was asking me to join her for breakfast. I blushed a little and politely said Sure I can with no questions asked.  This morning started off great!! As we walked into the cafeteria I could feel every one watching me as If I was a famous celebrity or something. Kinda made me feel nervous but I paid no mind to it and continued getting my breakfast so I could sit down and have a nice meal with this mystery girl.