Reflections - Jamie miller

The start.

*BANG!*

The front door knocked down.*

I jump from Jamie's chest originally asleep on top of it.I can hear Jamie's mum screaming and his dad shouting "you've got the wrong house".

But he hasn't.

I look at Jamie into his eyes trying to see a sign of him knowing what to do.But he doesn't.

We both don't know what to do.

We are only 13.

Jamie shivers next to me, clutching my hand tightly. The footsteps grow louder as figures emerge through the doorway, casting long shadows door then breaks in and a tall man wearing a bullet proof vest with others behind him with guns in their hands.

I look at Jamie as panic swells in my chest. His eyes are wide, mirroring the fear he looks back,trying not to make many sudden movements.

"You two get your hands in the fucking air now"

Jamie and I put our hands up in fear for our life.

We then hear this man say"My name is D.I Bascombe and I have a warrant to search your premises where is your son and his friend"

"Their in his bedroom"mr miller shouts in anger.

He then walks over into Jamie's room and the tears are running down my face when the man speaks up.

"Okay Jamie miller,Y/n Y/l/n the time is 6:15am and I'm arresting the both of you on suspicion of murder".

*My heart drops when I hear those words although I can hear Jamie's dad shouting in my ear it's like it's almost tuned out and I feel like I can't breathe.

I can then hear Jamie say "I didn't do anything,no we didn't do anything especially her leave y/n out of this she's done nothing wrong"

"DAD we haven't done anything".

I can hear the hurt in Jamie's voice .We know what we did but I'm going to do everything to make sure we are innocent.

**1 Year before the day of the arrest:**

It's my first day of year 7.

To say I'm terrified is an understatement.I don't know anyone here.

I went to a primary school about an hour drive away and my secondary school is 15 minute walk away.

I walk into school,my itchy blazer making me look like a box and my backpack looks like it could carry the whole pe cupboard.

I hear the bell ring and walk to my form classroom H12.

I walk into the room everyone's really short and there's a seating plan on the board.

Great I'm stuck on a table of boys.

I have this boy called Tommy on the end of the table then this boy called Ryan then it's me and next to me is a boy called Jamie.

I take my seat and wait for others to come in.

My leg bounces up and down from nerves. The room fills up, and chatter begins. Jamie turns to me, offering a hesitant smile.

Jamie and his mates sit down and start talking to me.

"So you must be y/n"tommy says.

"Yeah I am and you must be Tommy,Ryan and Jamie"I say.

"So do you know anyone here or something like that"Ryan asks.

I want to say yes but I don't want to lie.

"No I don't know anyone my old school was an hour away so no one from my primary goes here"I say.

"Well if you want you can hang round with us and stuff"Jamie says.

"Thanks I thought I was going to have a terrible first day alone but you guys saved me from that".

**2 weeks before the day of the arrest:**

I'm walking to history with Jamie when I feel someone shove me.

I look around and surprise surprise it's Katie.

Katie and her friends have been bullying me and the boys pretty much since 3 months of starting year 7.

And now we're in year 8 and she still won't piss off.Thing is Katie's a year above us so can't she just grow up and pick on someone her own age?

No,no apparently she can't.

"What do you want know Katie"I say groaning in annoyance just wanting to get to lesson for once.

"Watch your attitude before you regret it"Katie snaps at me.

I try to turn around and Carry on walking with Jamie but Katie grabs my bag and pulls me back"The fuck you think your are walking away from me"

I feel Jamie trying to pull me to the side but it's too late I fall to the floor and Katie starts punching and kicking me. Jamie starts yelling for help, his voice echoing down the corridors.

I try pushing her off me but I can't and all I can see is phones and I look to see Jamie.

Jamie looks at me like he wants to help but he's afraid.Until he grabs Katie and pushes her off me.

I start to cough and get up and try and leg it out of school  with Katie trying to follow us but we are too quick.

Me and Jamie walk back to his house.His house is nice and his bedroom is really cosy.

We sit on his bed and just talk.

"I actually hate Katie so much"I say in annoyance.

I don't want to hurt Jamie.But in don't get why he likes her.I get it shes pretty but she's a bully and a bitch.

"Yeah I guess so"Jamie says.

"Why do you like her then jay"I ask.

He looks shocked not expecting the question yet he knows how to answer.

"I don't know I mean I still have feelings for her but I think they are going away"he explains.

"Thank goodness"I say to Jamie but am quickly interrupted by pings on mine and Jamie's phone.

It's instagram.

I have around 20 messages all sending me rude messages about how I couldn't fight off Katie or just the video in general.

Messages like "who the fuck u think u are" or "pussy couldn't fucking fight back"

They all hurt but not as bad as Jamie's must.

He got ones like "little loser hhahaha" or "put his hands on a girl that kids  staying a virgin forever"

We are both scrolling and looking at what people sent until I stop and look at Jamie.

"Hey don't listen to them okay they're wrong"I say trying to comfort him.

He looks at me annoyed with disagreement.

"No they aren't wrong they're almost spot on no one's ever gunna like me I'm a little fucking loser and you couldn't even fight off Katie".He argues shouting.

"Okay but I didn't expect Katie to fight me and I was tired and I couldn't be bothered to fight back okay and who cares if your a loser you are my best friend and as long as we're still friends I don't give 2 shits on what people think about us alright"I say trying to prove to Jamie that I don't care what people think about me but i do.

"I just I wish I could do something you know to make it stop make Katie go away"Jamie says.

I try to figure out what Jamie means by 'go away' surely he doesn't mean like getting rid of her or something.

"Me too but we can't I don't want to go to prison for the rest of my life"I say.

"Neither"