The floors of the meeting room.
Cracked with time
Like the souls of those you meet here
We never forgot.
Nothing truly matters here
Only if your rich, stupid, and young
Its not much to others
Yet, give a man a mask
Married at 21
Got married young
Wasn't with the love of my life
Just sobbed all that nighth
I stand before my spawn
Glaring daggers at the sun
How dare it curse Me
With its unholy light
The packs of smoked cigars
Ciggertes are too cheap
Even if they have better flavor
I wish to go back to the first one
Sitting on that roof
With a man out of view
Tears still streaming down my face
I forgot his voice. How dare I
I curse myself in the wedding photos
With that fake smile of glee
Like I didn't sob before it started
I wish you had waited for me.
I wonder
Why you didn't object
Say something
I saw you in the crowd
In the back row
3rd seat from the door
Sitting there with a hat on
Holding back tears
The cigar burned out again.
Smell of smoke
And my burnt lungs
I stare at the wedding photos in the frame
Gripping it tightly in my hand
I want to burn these
So many everywhere
Like a demon
Taunting me.
Laughing
If only I could go back
The ring would've been with him.
Throwing the cigar in the trash
I don't care if its lit
If it lights the place ablaze
I'll be last out
In a box
Would you come to my funeral?
See my charred remains
See what you caused?
Dark thoughts.
It never used to cloud my mind
Before
You
I can't stand this
These children falsely call me
Dad
I wish they had never been born
My wife could toss herself from the top
I wouldn't care
Nor could I care
Funerals would be too good
Cracked tiles
In a fractured house
In a broken world
With one broken heart
-Cracked Tiles,
OC Info + Context:
Zackery Blackwell
Gay Businessman forced into a hetero marriage by his parents. His lover attended his wedding and never said goodbye. He hates his wife and family believing everything to be fake. He wrote this poem before a tragic fire claimed his life and his family. Police suspect a murder-suicide,
His lover Zander Landers attended his funeral and received everything in his will. May he forever rest in heaven
