Forever and Always

Chapter 8: Forgiveness

“Well what would you think about moving in with me then?”

“What!?” she shot up; all evidence of being tired vanished.

“No pressure or anything I was just thinking if you’re gonna be in London why not stay with me?”

*Kat’s POV*

My thoughts raced there were so many reasons why we shouldn’t while at the same time there weren’t really any at all.  It just freaked me out a little.

“Niall we haven’t even slept together!” I finally mustered up.

“We sleep together all the time!” he smiled cheekily.

“Ha. Ha. Ha. You know what I mean!”

“Babe why does that even matter I’m not asking you to have sex with me I’m asking you to move in with me and let’s face it we’ve been living together since we were five!”

“Niall that is so not the same thing!”

“How so?”

“I―uh―it―”

“See you can’t even come up with an answer you’re freaking out over nothing.”

“I just…” I trailed off.

“Look there’s no pressure or anything you don’t have to say yes I will completely understand if you say no, but before you just discount my offer know that it wouldn’t change anything between us and I only offered because I love you and want to spend as much time as possible with you.”

“You what?”

“I want to spend as much time as possible with you.”

“No no before that.”

“I love you?” He asked raising his eyebrows.

“Yeah that.” I replied dumbstruck.

“Kat I thought that went without saying! I’ve loved you since we were kids! But if I have to say it I will! I love you!”

I was slightly shocked by his words but I wasn’t sure why, he was right it should have gone without saying.  I straddled him and kissed him passionately before pulling away after a few moments.  “I love you too!” I said before kissing him again. Our kiss soon turned into something hungrier and eager as our hands roamed each other’s bodies.  His hands snaked under my shirt and I helped him take it off, leaving me topless in front of him, I hadn’t been wearing a bra.

“We don’t have to…” he started.

“I know.” I replied as I grinded my hips into his now throbbing erection.

He flipped us over so he was in control, hovering over me lying on my back.

“Have you ever?”

“No.”

“Are you sure about this?”

“Yeah.” I nodded.  I was slightly nervous knowing that he was well experienced and I well…wasn’t.  But when he kissed me all of my fears vanished.  His mouth moved from my lips and made its way down my neck leaving small love bites here and there.  When he reached my breasts he swirled his tongue around my nipple and flicked over it a few times while pinching and rolling the other with his rough calloused fingers.  When he was satisfied that one had received enough attention he quickly moved to the other giving it the same treatment.  When he was done with my breasts he trailed sloppy wet kisses down my stomach stopping when his face was right in front of my sex.

“You’re sure this is okay?” he asked, not wanting to push me too far.  I merely nodded while I panted heavily, unable to form a proper response.

He slowly and teasingly pulled my black lace boy short panties down my legs and threw them to the floor.  I gasped as he blew hot air on my clit before he attached his lips to it sucking hard, earning a moan from me.

“Shh babe.”

“You’re mom is at poker night and Greg went to see Vanessa so don’t tell me to shh.”

He chuckled at my exasperation which sent vibrations threw me making a moan escape from my lips again.  I nuzzled my fingers in his hair and spread my legs wider as he brought his index finger to my entrance and lightly teased it.  I whimpered at his teasing and bucked my hips down needing more; he got the hint and shoved his finger inside of me while I gasped at the contact.  He pumped in and out of me slowly and easily as his lips continued their assault on my clit.

“Ni” I whined breathlessly.

He knew what I was asking for and slowly eased another finger inside of me.  It was slightly uncomfortable but it wasn’t painful yet.  He started up the pace he had before easing in and out of me, making slight scissoring motions to open me up.  He quickly curled his fingers hitting the bundle of nerves inside of me sending me into euphoria, moaning loudly and arching my back off the mattress.  I could feel Niall smirk against my core knowing he found what he was looking for.  He slowly pulled his fingers out and added a third to stretch me more.  This time it was slightly painful and I winced a little, but the pain vanished as he curled his fingers hitting that spot again.  He brought his lips to mine kissing me passionately and my hands trailed down his toned chest.  I hooked my thumbs in the waist band of his boxers and yanked them down as far as I could and he kicked them to the floor.  My eyes widened at his size and Niall noticed my shock.

“Like I said we don’t have to.”

“Niall I swear to god if you ask me one more time!”

“OK OK m’sorry.” He mumbled against my neck.

I grabbed a hold of his shaft and pumped him a few times before letting out a pleading, “Ni.”  He got the hint and removed his fingers from me before lining up at my entrance. 

“If it hurts too much just tell me to stop and I will.” He stated reassuringly.

I just nodded and he slowly started to ease into me.  He was just past the tip when pain shot through my body and I scrunched up my face.  His hand came up to mine and entwined our fingers for support.  “I’m so sorry.” He whispered in my ear.

“It's fine just go Ni”

“I don’t wanna hurt you.”

“It’s just gonna hurt more like this just do it all at once, like ripping off a band-aid.” I reassured.

“Okay…” he said hesitantly before he quickly slid into me until his hips were flush with mine.  I screamed out in pain and a tear slid down my cheek.  Niall kissed it away before capturing my lips in an apologetic kiss.  Slowly I adjusted to his size and the pain disappeared into mild discomfort. 

“m-move,” I said shakily.

“You sure?”

I just nodded and he began to slowly thrust his hips into me.  It wasn’t painful anymore but it wasn’t exactly pleasurable yet.  He shifted my hips around trying to get a better angle.  When he pulled them up slightly he found my g-spot again making me writhe beneath him.

“Oh god, Ni, there, oh,” I moaned out breathlessly between pants.

He picked up his pace and thrust into me relentlessly bringing me closer to my climax.  After a while I felt the familiar sensation boiling in the pit of my stomach.

“Ni, Ni, I’m close,” I panted.

“I know baby, me too, just let go.” He replied as he brought his thumb down to rub my clit, which sent me over the edge crying out his name.  As I clenched around him his thrusts became sloppier and soon I felt him twitch inside of me releasing his load as he grunted into the crook of my neck.  He pulled out slowly and flopped down on the bed next to me, breathing heavily as he came down from his high.  He pulled me into him and held me tight as his breathing evened out.  “I love you.” He whispered as he placed a kiss to my forehead. 

“I love you too.” I replied as I drifted off to sleep.

AN: sorry it’s so long the first part was really hard to write but once I got on a roll I kinda got carried away.