Bored and Complicated (Rewrite)

I'm bored...

A world where everyone lives a happy life, a world where everyone enjoys, a place only life exists.
Is it really? Life has been the only reason we all live, everyone loves to be alive, nobody wants to die...

Me? I haven't thought it really hardly.
I'm just bored, a boring and plain life.
Everything repeats, going to school or work, is it not frustrating?

I'm all alone in my thoughts, no one understands. My mind set is somehow out of ordinary, I haven't done anything insane in my life.

"Things in this world is a cycle, life, time, universe, space, death, etc.", that's what I said.

A neverending suffering or pleasure, does it really matter? I'm just bored, doing things like work or school is almost like a time killing machine to me.
I'm doing all of thing to kill my time, to past the things that makes me bored.

Some calls me lazy, always lying down, wasting time onto something not useful, but I didn't care once. I'm killing time to push my boredom away.
I'm writing this because I want anyone to understand what I'm trying to say in my mind that I can't explain.

I shouldn't have been writing this if I'm not trying to past time, I'm doing this to go through it, for me to finally wipe my boredom out of my life.

Games? Movies? No, it wasn't enough. For example, finishing the game is like finally finishing your cope, and here we go again, trying to find another coping mechanism to kill time once again but is it really worth it?

"Death is my only choice to finish this" I said, but is it really? But when I try to look more to it, what's after death? Something that will finally stop my boredom? I don't know, that's why I'm having a second thought, living life like others, but how? I don't know as well

I'm doing well in my studies, only using stock knowledge, I haven't reviewed once in my high school life and manage to Ace the exams and scores. But it's nothing out of ordinary, some people can do that.

And here I am in my room doing all sorts of things I could do in my phone, wasting time and things, but yeah after that it's another day, it repeats, making me the most bored person in this world when you try to think of it.

Here and now, I'll end this chapter.
(Fin)