Come Back For Me

Chapter One

Older - Gracie Abrams"I went quiet,And you went cold,Guess that happened when we got older."

Nothing has changed.

Walking through this Hannaford, all I see are the same employees; the store hasn't been renovated and it feels like I've been transported back to high school. Running through the aisles with the boys, hoping not to get kicked out. It's shocking the things we got away with then.

Flash forward at least four years later; I'm toting my daughter around to grab a few things that we need for dinner. She's content in the cart with her little stuffed animal, so I can quickly grab what I need. Thank god, honestly. I'm pretty sure she just enjoys hanging out with me at this point; we're best friends, in my head at least. She doesn't really have a choice right now.

Not having a job means that I can come here in the middle of the day when nobody else is here– not that Maine is that busy in general, to be quite honest. After a few years of living on the outskirts of Boston, everywhere feels like a ghost town to me. Not being stuck in ungodly traffic is nice, though, I'll take the wins where I can get them these days.

Rolling up to the cashier, the lady smiles at Iris and waves. Don't do it, I think to myself.

"Hi, sweetheart. Do you want a sticker?" And you did it.. Okay.

I tap Iris's arm lightly, her adorable little face glancing up at me.

'Do you want a sticker?' I sign to her. Her smile was enough, but she nodded quickly with a little 'mmm' sound.

"She would love one," I tell the cashier, smiling softly at her. Iris reached out to take it from her and signed 'Thank you' back to her. I hesitate but then spit out, "Oh, um, she says thank you."

"Well, she's very welcome."

The rest of the interaction was pretty quiet as she rang us up. I don't mind when people want to talk to her, but we're both learning ASL together, so it's not always easy.

'Mom wants coffee,' I tell her as I buckle her into her car seat. She just giggles back at me while I pretend to fall asleep. I don't know what I did right in order to have a generally happy child, but I thank god every day for it. She loves being out of the house, which bodes well when you're the only parent.

'Ready?' I ask her, peeking in the rearview mirror to see her nodding.

Driving through the Old Port is always weird, knowing these places and how to get there, but not having done so in so long. I missed this. All the brick buildings, the small locally owned stores, and the restaurants, are definitely something I longed for while living in a city.

It only takes a few minutes to get reasonably close to the coffee shop I've been craving. Finding parking can be a pain with all the one-way streets but, thankfully, this time of day isn't terrible. Packing and unpacking my child is one of my many talents at this point— my arms have never been so toned in my life.

She knows just to stand close to me while I lock the car. Once the little honk sound happens, I pull her up to spare myself the outrageously slow walk. Before I can even finish situating her, my heart jumps into my throat.

"Melody?

"I haven't been back here all that long and somehow haven't really run into anybody that I would talk to. It was all of two seconds before I turned to see him, but I felt frozen in the moment. I haven't had to introduce anybody to Iris yet, and I was kind of hoping to avoid it a little longer. My head whips around, not expecting to see him. Josh?