SOMEDAY [corey haim Fanfiction]

Chapter 5

It was my birthday yesterday. When I blew out my candles, I wished for you, Corey. I wished that you'd come back to me. That's all I want. Why won't you come back?
Feldman is mad at me. He's so mad at me. I tried to swallow a bottle of pills, but he walked in while I was in the middle of it. He started yelling at me, he was even crying. He told me he couldn't lose us both. All I wanted was to leave, I didn't want to live anymore. Feldman sat down with me for a bit, He told me it wasn't worth it, but I don't believe him, Corey. I just want to be happy again, but you're the only thing that makes me happy, and you're never coming back. Why does it have to be like this? I wish you were still here with me, I wish I could go back in time and change everything. You meant so much to me, and I never showed you truly how much I cared for you. I can't help but feel like you're gone because of me. I'm so sorry, Corey.
Your mother came by today also, It took me by surprise though, I usually go over there. She invited me to go out to dinner with her. I accepted, knowing she probably needed a friend, it must be so hard on her. She kept saying she was okay, but I knew she wasn't. Every time she said it, she'd look anywhere but at me. I tried not to bring you up, but she did. She asked if I knew how sad you were, I wanted to say yes, because I did know. I saw it every day in your eyes, Corey. But I told her no. But truly, I knew you were sad, why didn't I do anything? I didn't even try to see if you were okay. Corey, if you would just come back, I would show you exactly how much I care for you, and exactly how much I love you. I'm so sorry for not doing it before, I didn't know I'd end up like this. I'm so sorry.
- Lily