There's something missing in me
Pieces that don't quite fit
I try to glue them together force them to fit.
There's just so much space....
What can I do?
I want to mend the pieces to be whole
The more I try the wider the open space appears
God I'm trying!!
Why can't I just close this gap
What is wrong with me?
I can't love me or you
But somehow I find room for love, for you
Why can't I find that for myself?
I'm living in hell inside myself
I keep choosing everyone else but who I need to chose
What do I do?
I keep pulling out my heart and offering it up for sacrifice.
Here's all I have to offer you;
I can give you a pretty smile
I can give you encouragement
I can fill you with love and assurance
I can simplify your life
But I will still never be the chosen one
I can be whatever it is you need of me
But what I will never be is what you want
So I crawl back inside my hole inside myself
I'll paint on a pretty smile until you find what it is your looking for
When you walk away I'll say it's okay
I was never what you wanted.
Just what you needed for a time
I deserve more
I deserve a heart.....
I deserve not to be tore open
