"i'm so nervous i'm so nervous i'm so fucking nervous" is all i can say while looking into the mirror.
this was my first year starting at a new high school since i moved from my last one.
my parents worked a lot so we would often have to move to maintain their work life.
i was honestly getting used to my old house because that's the house i lived in for the longest, it was only around 3 years but it still felt long.
i made the most friends there and my school life wasn't too bad excluding my often anxious feelings but that comes with being a teenager.
i'm a sophomore and i've lived in austin texas for the 3 years i was talking about, probably the best 3 years of my life.
now i live in dallas which isn't too too far so i could still see certain friends if i really wanted to.
"rhiannah come on you don't want to be late to school!" i got interrupted by my thoughts as my mother called me downstairs.
"coming ma!" i say grabbing my purse and backpack and speed stepping down the stairs.
"before you go let me take a picture of you" my mom says pulling out her phone to take the yearly first day of school pictures of me.
after she finishes taking the pictures i leave out my front door to walk to the bus.
"bye baby have a good day!" my mom shouts. "thanks you too!" i yell back at her walking to my stop.
this is where it was starting to hit me, yea i was used to moving and meeting new people but i'm going to a different high school it's not like middle or elementary.
as i'm walking to the stop sign i see two people, a girl and a boy who are standing quite far away from each other so i take it that they don't know each other.
i didn't feel like disturbing them so i pull out my phone and my pink beats and put on my school📚 playlist with the first song being cat n tha hat by boofpaxkmooky.
i see the bus approaching the stop sign and as i get on the bus i notice that there's no seats left on the bus, great first day.
i walk further down and there's a seat open with a boy in it.
i sigh before asking him if i could sit in seat and when he looked up i was appalled.
he had a caramel skin complexion,diamond earrings on both of his ears, low eyes, 2 toned lips,acne scars,and a nike ski mask that was only covering his hair.
"yea fs" he said moving his back pack out of the way and placeing it on the floor, scooting over to make room for me.
"thanks" i say sitting down also placing my book bag on the floor.
"you new here?" he asked looking up at me.
"yea i moved here about 2 weeks ago, why you ask?" i say to him looking up from my phone to his face.
"i been going here for a while and i've never seen you so i assumed you were new" he says replying to my question.
"oh well that makes sense and you said you been here for a while, did you fail or sum?" i asked him genuinely confused at his statement.
"nah never that" he chuckled while shaking his head, "i'm a junior, feels like i've been here forever" he follows after his sentence.
"okay that also makes sense" i say also laughing at my previous remark.
"what grade you in?" he asked me.
"i'm a sophomore and i'm ready to leave" i replied to him.
"enjoy it while you can is all i can say fr and stay out the mix cuz people are weird at this school" he says putting back on his black headphones.
"i'll try" i said putting on my beats trying to "enjoy" the bus ride.
