fuck it, i love you.

why are you here?

it was no secret that briana hated her parents, her parents were never around or just acted like they didnt care. They would never care to go to brianas volleyball games or care where she would go. That really bothered briana, she would see everyones elses parents go to their games or when she was hanging out with her friends their parents texting them asking when are they gonna be home. Only thing she liked about it was the freedom, she got to do whatever she wanted and not having her parents say no, but also she kinda did want her parents to care at the same time. They stopped caring when she turned 13, a teenager. Now they always get into fights n sometimes she gets kicked out.

"Why dont you ever care mom! your supposed to care for me and love me! do you even love me?" i said. silence her mom didnt say anything for a second, "i do, your just alot to handle!" her mom yelled out. "How am i alot to handle when you havent even really been around me enough for 5 years?! all you do is go to work come home to ur husband that also doesnt care about me and watch tv!" i snapped back. "you know what, get out. pack your stuff and leave." my mom mumbled. "okay. but im never speaking to you EVER AGAIN." i said while running upstairs, i was bawling. why couldnt her parents just care for once, would she even care if i was homeless and having no where to go. so i packed some stuff and left. i knew mary lou said if i ever need to come over i can. But its 2:00 am and i dont want to be a bother and we have school im the morning. but fuck it im going i get into my car and start driving to the triplets house, mary lou and jimmy has always been the parents i never had they always treated me like their daughter and i kinda wish i was. I got to the triplets house pretty fast its only a 10 minute drive and i grab my stuff and start walking to their front porch, its pouring rain and im still bawling from the fact that my mom sounded pretty serious and didnt even try to stop me from leaving. i knock softly cause i dont want to wake the whole house up.
then i knock again, hearing footsteps approaching. Matt opens the door, thank the lord it was matt and not chris since i know chris is usually down here pretty late even on school nights. "omg bri whats wrong? what happened? are you okay??" matt said sounding really concerned. i couldnt say anything, i just starting crying even more, matt pulled me into a hug. matt is always there when i need him and i can always count on him to be there. matt is my best friend and probably closest to him because we just get each other even without saying anything, we can just look at each other and are on the same page as one another. He pulls away and says "do you want to sleep in my room? you can talk to my parents when we get home from school, im postive they wont mind." matt says softly i can tell he already knew it was about my parents so i nod and follow him into his room. i jump into bed and roll over trying to fall asleep. "good night bri." matt says, " goodnight matt, thank you btw" i say quietly. "ofc, anytime" matt says while whispering.

chris barges into matts room, "matt wake up its 7:00 your gonna make us late!" chris yells. i start to wake up and matts already getting out of bed, chris looks at me "why are you here?" he says in a disgusted tone. before i could say anything "chris chill she got into a fight with her parents, and came here ok? now get out" matt states. i smile at matt and then get out of bed, i walk into matts bathroom to brush my teeth, brush my hair, i put my hair in to french braids, get dressed, im wearing a baby blue tee and grey over sized sweats and a boston black hoodie overtop my baby tee. i do a little makeup, concealer,blush,mascara. i couldnt do alot since we were in a rush. then i walk out and see nick and he hugs me tight bc matt told him why im here, i have yet to tell anyone what really happened but matt already knows its about my parents by the way i was crying last night. we all walked out to the car, matt let me get aux and i ask if i can play taylor swift, since im the BIGGEST swiftie you know. "i guessssss" matt says rolling his eyes. i smile at him but then "matt really i dont want to listen to that shit" chris says looking straight at him looking really mad bc usually chris gets aux. "chris stfu let her be for once please me and matt dont listen to taylor swift but you dont see us complaining" nick says slightly yelling. Chris goes quiet, i put on my tears ricochet.
"if im dead to you why are you at the wake? cursing my name wishing i stayed, look at how my tears ricochet." i sing quietly.
" i can go anywhere i want, anywhere i want just.not.home. you can aim for my heart go for blood but you would still miss me in your bones. and i still talk to you while im screaming at the sky and when you cant sleep at night you here my stolen lullabies." i also sing quietly.
the car is silent while i play gorgeous trying to lighten up the mood even though i know they ALL dont like taylor swift.

ahhhhh this is my first fanfiction so please be nice!! part two coming soon!! 💋🤩