I'm going to need some time to adjust;
To clear the cobwebs and distrust.
Avoiding traps and snares of misplaced attraction and lust.
A return to Myself is a desperate must.
Sadly, I no longer trust.
Wouldn't put my vulnerability in the hands of anyone; I'm all that I got.
I never lost the plot,
But who's at fault is now something we all forgot.
A dismal reality to know that loyalty can be bought
By the worst of the worst who only live to stir the pot.
Memories of exchanged shelter and protection.
We used to let each other be without correction.
Pure beauty in my eyes, your flaws never needed correction.
Funny how the "villain" is the one who's able to accept rejection.
Even I lay awake at night missing your affection.
Through thick and thin of every situation,
You could always count on my participation.
Played my part and maintained my station.
I cared ever deeply for you beyond both of our reputations.
Even taking the fault so you won't have to for our separation.
Dinner parties for one where I propose a toast:
To letting go of the pain of when you were nowhere to be found when I needed you the most.
To which my body now hosts
Ailments and ilks that I'm ashamed to have been diagnosed.
All that glitters can sometimes be pyrite.
Almost, but not quite.
Skepticism when something just ain't right.
Discernment to avoid foolish delight.
Some would call it not being wrapped too tight.
I'll stay on my side if you stay on yours,
But you never do.
Too much history between me and you.
I'll stay as far away as possible,
Adding validity to rumors that were never true.
I'll keep my distance so there won't be any more truths to misconstrue.
Self-importance means that I can be through, too.
I've ran out of strength to protest.
Getting out of everybody's way is for the best.
Choosing to honor your request
Just to prove that I'm nothing like the rest.
Still honoring your wishes at your behest.
My respect for you and honor, about me, I'd hope you'd still attest...
You know where to find me, but don't though.
Because we both know;
A fatal attraction that we can't let go.
Feelings that we should no longer show;
And rightfully so.
Out the way; how I always wanted it.
How you always wanted it.
