Loving The Sun

Prologue

After 3 years of break up. I'm still into him. My Linnaeus Steel. My one and only love. My first and last.

"Steel please hear me out.. please hear me out. Please let me explain everything. Kahit ngayon lang sana pakinggan moko" i pleaded while kneeling on him.

" Stop being so desperate Yuki! Tangina it's been 3 years! Kinalimutan na kita kaya kalimutan mo nadin ako!" he roared while taking off my hands on him.

" Hindi ko kaya..oo matagal na yon but i still loved you!" I shouted while tears are falling out of my eye's.

Yes, I'm now kneeling to man who abandoned me. I was being so desperate to get him back. I'm still holding on to someone who's already given up on me.

"Please forgive me steel" i cried.

Hindi alintana ang malakas na buhos ng ulan at ang malalakas na tunog ng kalangitan. For him, I'm willing to endure all of that. Just to get him back.

"Umalis ka na! I can no longer be with you! I don't want to fall again with you and your freaking lies!"

His eyes we're full of anger. I can no longer see the Steel who was so inlove with me. The Steel who loved me unconditionally.

Tuluyan nyang naalis ang pagkakahawak ko sa kanya. At walang lingon lingon nya akong iniwang mag isa. Basang-basa at giniginaw sa ulan. I couldn't imagine that my soft and loving man would turned into that.

"Mahal ko"

I can only whisper our endearment on the wind.

Sinubukan kong tumayo at naglakad patungo sa kotse ko. Kahit nanghihina ay nagawa kong pumasok sa loob. Halos isang oras pa akong umiyak sa loob dahil sa sakit.

I wasn't expecting that he'll be like that. Ni minsan hindi nya nagawang magmura o itulak ako. Guess i really ruined him. I ruined him that bad.

Nag pasya na akong umuwi ng condo ko dahil hindi ko na kaya ang lamig. Pakiramdam ko ay lalagnatin ako.

Sa isang oras ng pag mamaneho ay narating ko na ang condo ko. I was all alone. Wala si Clarisse kaya mag isa ako ngayon sa condo. He's with his boyfriend Josh.

Dahil sa sobrang lamig ay nagpasya na akong maligo. At katulad ng laging nangyayare. I cried while taking a bath. As always. Walang bago. Ganto padin.

I was done taking a bath when my phone vibrate. It was a facebook notification. Dali dali ko itong tinignan para malaman kung ano yon.

It was a message from Clarisse.

Clarisse buang🥴:

Hoy girl may e sesend ako sayo. Ang ex mong si Steel nag transfer sa PSU.

Ako:

San mo nanaman yan nasagap?

Clarisse buang🥴:

Nakita ko sa story nya. Nasa registrar office sya while holding an id of our school.

Bigla akong nakaramdan ng saya dahil sa sinabi ni Clarisse. I can finally get closer to him. I hope bumalik na sya sakin.