One Direction Imagines

Dirty Niall Imagine - Drunk Again

"Do you blame me?" I mumbled

"I wish ya would have opened up the door so I could speak to ya."

"I was scared okay" no need to beat around the bush anymore I couldn't keep up the boldness anymore. I knew I needed to build up some courage to face him whether I liked it or not.

I finally looked up to see he was watching me intently.

"You're scared?" his voice sounded so little compared to what it normally does. "You're scared of me..." he says more so to himself. Almost shocked that the idea of me being frightened of him would even come into play. His eyes fell to the floor and he just kept shaking his head. I didn't want to say anything partially because I didn't know what to say.

After what seemed like hours I finally got enough energy to move from the spot that I felt cemented to.

"I'm gonna go" The words left my mouth before I even realized it. Niall's head snapped up quick.

"Wait, you're leaving me? I know I fucked up big time" His words coming out fast like he was out of breath. "I know you're scared but we can fix this. I promise we can try to get back to where we were. I know I don't say it enough but I-"

"I can't do this. What if things don't get back to where they were? What then?" I really wanted to make things work because Niall was the first boy I loved but the outcomes of this relationship getting back to where it was, was low. I don't know if it will ever be the same.

"Please...Can we try?" he pleaded. Moving from the spot at the door frame he walks closer to me by the counter. I start backing up questioning if I should really be that close to him. He notices my hesitation and stops moving. Where he is standing I get a good enough look at his eyes to see the hurt, regret, and sorrow that show through his bright blue eyes.

"Please don't be afraid." He takes a step closer. Now only 6 feet away.

"I love you. I will never hurt you again." His voice becoming shaky. Then one thing I hated to see why Niall cry. It literally breaks my heart in two when I see him cry. But I was still unsure of what to say or do. As much as I hate to see him cry I couldn't let off with me being the only one hurt here. I was so confused I just wanted to sleep. I was so tired and confused.

"How do I know it won't happen again? How can I earn your trust back? We are back at square 1, everything has gone down the drain."

"I promise you," He takes two more steps closer to me. He is getting so close I can smell his musk mixed with beer. His smell intoxicating me, making me more confused and dizzy than I already am. "I will do everything I can to gain your trust back. To get our relationship back. And to get me back...I just...don't know what I would do-" He stops and closes his eyes. Shit he's crying. His chin quake as he tries to hold back the sobs that are threatening to come out. One by tears are flowing down his cheeks falling onto his shirt. His body starts to shake. I disregard everything in my head telling me to keep my distance and step forward to take him in my arms. I wrap me arms around his neck while pulls me close to him body. He nuzzles his face in the crook of my neck and just sobs. I couldn't hold back my tears either. It came to the point of two broken people crying in the kitchen, holding each other so close in hope of becoming one again. Holding each other so close because they need someone to help them get through all the pain they endured. I run my hands through the back of Niall's hair in effort to sooth him.

"I don't wanna lose you. I can't lose you. I need you" He finally speaks after pulling himself together. Still holding me he pulls his head back and places his forehead on mine. Staring deep into my eyes he says "We are gonna make it work. I know it. Just please give me another chance."