Love's Not Worth It (My Songbook)

Lavender (Do I)

Verse 1 

Tangled up in the messes we made 

I play in your chess games everyday 

The sun is shining in your eyes, makes me relive the pain 

But you can't see it on my face 

Pre- chorus 

Stabbed in the heart 

Lavender haze in my head 

I need to incarnate so I don't fall in love again 

I gotta bite the bullet 

Live life to the fullest 

Become the boldest

Chorus 

But you're the catalyst in this experiment

Unchanged at the end 

I'm just such a different person 

Since we're no longer friends 

But you seem like you're the same 

Doesn't true love make people change 

I wish I was the catalyst in this experiment

So you could be the one to see that it hits different

Verse 2 

I'll describe what we had as lavender 

I lived through it as a graceful passenger 

Since it's over I should be brought to peace 

But now I'm always stressed on the streets 

Pre- chorus 

Love makes my world go round 

But the lavender haze makes me cut you out 

If you only you could see what I have now 

Chorus 

You're the catalyst in this experiment

Unchanged at the end 

I'm just such a different person 

Since we're no longer friends 

But you seem like you're the same 

Doesn't true love make people change 

I wish I was the catalyst in this experiment

So you could be the one to see that it hits different

Bridge 

Do I tell you to get out 

Or crush you with my lavender clout 

(You're unchanged, you're not phased) 

Do I tell you how I feel 

Do I lie or be real 

(You're unchanged, you're not phased) 

Do I beg you to stay 

Or stay in the lavender haze 

(You're unchanged, you're not phased) 

Do you have a lavender touch 

You make me want to spill my guts 

Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah 

Chorus 

You're the catalyst in this experiment

Unchanged at the end 

I'm just such a different person 

Since we're no longer friends 

But you seem like you're the same 

Doesn't true love make people change 

I wish I was the catalyst in this experiment

So you could be the one to see that it hits different

Outro 

I wanna be the catalyst

Why can't I be the catalyst

Is there a special secret to be the catalyst

I just wanna be the catalyst

(But if you were the catalyst you wouldn't grow)