YOU - TaeTee

Gamble

It's hurt.

"Why are you crying?" I ask, surprised myself that I'm already standing beside him, cupping his face.

Please, do not cry.

It felt weird when he left.

I don't know.

"Oi, you okay?" Pavel asks, waking me from my deep thoughts.

"I'm okay."

"No, you're not." He says.

He knows what am I thinking about; who am I thinking about.

I sigh.

I don't know.

I'm not sure myself.

But, my heart tells me to believe it.

"I need help, Naret."

It's been a long time since I called his real name.

Pavel was shocked when I mentioned that name. 

The sacred name in our life.

'Thanapon Jarujitranon'

He looks at me, trying to read me, maybe.

I am sure he's able to grasp the whole story.

"What do you currently have?" He asks.

I look at him.

"I don't know." I reply.

"Only these." I hand him my phone.

He looks at the picture on the screen.

"They look familiar, aren't they?"

Pavel nods frantically.

"I will visit them myself." He says and walks away.

Hello P'Tae. This is me, Tee. I just know about what you did for my family. Actually, you have done a lot of things for me. I don't know how to thank you enough. I will pay you bank little by little. And tell me if there's anything that I can do for you, P'Tae.

I was shocked when received this message.

Pay me back, huh?

'I just want you close to me.'

I typed but deleted them. It's feel cringe.

'Buy me dinner.'

No, cannot. How many dinners should it be?

I don't want to appear to be so kind.

Maybe it's better to distance myself from him for now?

But.....

'Have sex with me.'

A gamble reply.

I wanna see our fate.