You asked me not to,
but I couldn't resist writing of you,
In my mind, I write of you,
From our first meeting, thoughts accrue.
Every day, your name I knew,
In my head, it's all about you.
They call it a situationship,
But I won't name it, let it slip.
I'll bear the pain, won't let it rip,
For you, I'd sail a sinking ship.
I'm in love, yet I can't say,
Waiting for the right time to convey.
Why do things go this way?
I pray for strength every day.
I wish her joy, though it's bittersweet,
Her heart still holds onto another's beat.
I contemplate silence as our paths meet,
Leaving without causing her defeat.
Love fills my heart, it's clear,
But I keep it inside, hold it dear.
Watching movies, holding back a tear,
For her happiness, I persevere.
She reaches out to him, I understand,
Though it stings, I play my hand.
If she's happy, then I am,
Though it's hard to withstand.
Drained by thoughts, I feel confined,
Longing for freedom, peace of mind.
I can't keep living, feeling blind,
I don't want to live anymore
and leave it behind.
~Arghya.h
