Only You

1. Kan Seo Joon

Cold, it's the only sensation I have since I get up, a ray of light comes in from the window and hits my face; I hide under the covers as if I were a vampire who doesn't want to see the dawn break. Cold, that's what I feel even under my covers, but I'm used to it, my body resists it and I like it. I try to sleep again, but my cell phone starts ringing. - Damn, I want to rest a little more and forget that there is a world out there waiting for me! - I say from within.

-Good morning, Seo Joon! It's time to get up - the voice of my phone's software is my daily alarm clock - today you have many important matters to attend to; Your schedule is busy until 10:00pm. I have to sign 3 product promotion contracts with the company SUE COSMETICS at 9:00am. Lunch with the management of this company at 12:00pm. There is an interview on the CITA program about your latest feature film at 2:00pm. End yesterday's photo section for UNICEF advertising at 4:00pm. At 6:00pm you have dinner with the Americans from Netflix to talk about the second season of your super hit. And at 10:00 the day ends. I hope your day is always beautiful!

Having said that, the curtains in my room were automatically drawn so that the sun could enter completely and invade my cold winter room, the heat is imminent - another day! - I say to myself, my eyes finally open, I take a deep breath. To gather the necessary strength and with nothing more to think about, I suddenly sit on the edge of the bed; I put on my green slippers like the Grinch that one of my youngest fans gave me for my birthday and although they are a little big, the face of that tender person was enough for me to accept them with pleasure and every time I put them on I think of her. I get up and stretch a little; I put my hands to my hair and ruffle it, I've always had that habit, even though outside I have to wear it differently. I look at my room, it's a mess, but, that's me, - they'll fix it for me - they always do it, from the moment I leave my house, until I return, I have workers to fix everything for me, I've never had I like that they do it, my whole life is a mess and many know it, even so, they always fix everything for me. I walk to the balcony of the room, open the door and leave. I love the smell of the mornings; I breathe in the aroma of wet grass and the soft humidity of the environment calms me, encourages me and motivates me to start the day.

-Seo Joon! - the voice of the mobile assistant speaks again- you have 2 new messages on your mobile, do you want me to read them to you?

- Yes please. 

-Good. One is from Eun Ta your personal assistant; He says that he will arrive in 45 minutes along with all your preparation equipment. The other is from his manager; He is in Iceland; he arrives the day after tomorrow from his vacation. The kitchen lady has just notified via the Server application that breakfast is ready.

-How lucky Lee Rae is. - I murmur just to myself- Alexa!

-Yes, Kan Seo Joon?

- Tell the kitchen lady that I'll be downstairs in 15 minutes, I'm going to take a shower.

-Understood, sending message through Server.

I leave the balcony and go to the bathroom, the light automatically turns on when I enter, I see the small speaker on the sink.

-Alexa! Turn on the shower for 10 minutes and set the water to medium temperature please.

-Right away.

The shower opens automatically, and a light steam begins to rise; I undress and enter. The water falls on my body in an incredible way, I raise my head and the rapid drops kiss my face. It reminds me a lot of the summer rains of my childhood and the times I had fun running and jumping under them -Yes, I really needed this. - I feel totally relaxed, I take the soap and begin to gently rub it all over my body; My bathroom has a mirror inside the shower where I watch the entire process. -I'm not bad at all despite my age. - I always think the same thing. -You're a fool and you're never going to change! But I still like you.- Park Min's words come back to my mind, I miss that woman and Without realizing it, I am touching myself down thinking about her, about her face, about the movement of her hair as she walked, about her perfume; Without realizing it, my hand has gained momentum and while I look at myself in the mirror I imagine her in front of me, biting her lip while she looks at me with her mischievous eyes - You're a fool!... - I remember her; but suddenly I imagine her with her serious face and looking at me with disappointment -...you will never change, that's why I chose another man instead of you, you are not going to give me what I need, I am not going to achieve with you what I want, no I see security of a life with you. Our relationship ended. My hand stops its attack, and I am left incomplete again. The same thing always happens to me: I hit the mirror wall; It's been a long time since I've been alone - damn you, get out of my mind! - I scream; The water stops immediately along with my desire, I see my body again in the mirror, I am frustrated and upset.