After a moment, Hux squeezed your hand gently and you glanced up to him, your (e/c) eyes meeting his, all shame melting away at the concern he displayed. "How are you feeling?" He asked quietly. You smiled weakly, taking another drink from your water.
"A bit ridiculous, sir. I don't know why I reacted like that. It's really unbecoming." You answered, bile rising in your throat as you thought back to the way people looked at you on the bridge. Hux tutted and shook his head.
"It is not unbecoming, (L/n), you had a PTSD episode. It is not uncommon." Hux scoffed and you stared at him with wide eyes.
"A PTSD episode? No, I couldn't have had one of those!" You replied incredulously, shaking your head dismissively.
"Why not, you experienced a traumatic injury." Kylo spoke this time and you turned your attention to him, shaking your head again as you stood, removing your hands from Hux's as you paced away to the other side of the room.
"So many people have been through worse situations than I have and they never experience something like that." You turned to face the men, you didn't know who you were angry with, but you allowed it to be directed at them. "I am fine , I was burned, that's it. General, you were there with me and you don't have episodes like this!" You blurted, hands flying out in frustration. Hux's face fixed itself in a hard line and Kylo, as if being ordered to, turned on his heel and left the room, locking the door behind him again as he left.
You watched him leave, anger deflating and turning into uneasiness as the General stood and walked over to you. "You are wrong." He said when he stopped before you. You looked to him in confusion, but he simply took your hand and lead you back to the couch, allowing himself to sit after you. With Ren no longer in the room, he sat closer to you, his hand holding yours and resting in your lap. The sudden intimacy after your panic was a welcome comfort, and you loved how he absently was fiddling with your hands as he began to speak.
"Every night after I would visit you in the medbay, I would return to my quarters to work. I couldn't help but think of when you fell at my feet in the cockpit. How your eyes rolled back into your head. I thought I lost you." He gripped your hands tightly, and you tried not to wince. You squeezed back and he silently thanked you for the comfort. "When I tried to sleep, I would wake up to nightmares of hearing that you had succumbed to your injuries in the night. Or that the Resistance had come back to finish the job. I am sure that your doctor had had enough of my calls by the third night that she began ignoring me." You felt your heart clench at how much he seemed to care. It surprised you, the hard exterior of the general hid a soft romantic.
You lifted one of your hands to cup his face, your fingers brushing along his hairline to touch his gel slicked hair. He leaned into your touch as if he was starving for the contact, and you realised that he probably was. "You haven't lost me, yet." You joked in a quiet whisper and the general chuckled softly, his hand coming to cover yours. He pulled it from his face and pressed a gentle kiss to the palm of your hand. Butterflies erupted in your chest at the motion, and then they burst into heat when he pulled you in for a kiss.
When Hux pulled away, your eyes fluttered back open slowly to see his face was softened from it's normally hard facade, his eyes then darted to the clock on the wall. "It seems that I have made you late." He said with a self satisfied smirk. You glanced at your watch and swore. You were late for your meeting with Commander Ren. Hux moved to pull you onto his lap for another kiss but you giggled as you pushed him away from you and opened the door. You shot a bright smile over your shoulder at him, all memory of your episode forgotten and you raced down the halls to the meditation room.
Ren was not pleased that you had kept him waiting. That much was evident by him plunking you down on your pillow with the force and not with a simple command. You tried to defend yourself but he held up a hand to silence you. You obeyed, getting comfortable on your spot as he spoke. "I am going to help you control, and even understand your visions."
Chapter 6
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