July 2, 2023
I started to love the walks
the sunsets,
the bus rides,
the rain,
the songs,
the peace.i wanted to take you to places I knew you'd like,
but now i wouldn't be able to.
i can only watch you from afar.talks that lasted hours,
but too afraid to say a word now.it was never clear if it was over now,
or if there was ever something to begin with.i see you in everything.
things that were normal,
places that i used to go to.
now are like fragments of memories from a lifetime ago.now i go to places i would've taken you to.
do things i would've loved to do with you.
i can only ever dream of talking to you again.its just gone.
and it's my fault.sorry.
it hurts thinking about you being with someone else
but i don't have the right to.
you deserve to be happy, and i don't want to bother you.i know it.
i understand why you wouldn't to be associated with me anymore.
this was a result of me being refusing to acknowledge my mistakes.
YOU ARE READING
Depths of my Mind
PoetryMy mind is scary. I've now realized it does things that aren't healthy or safe for me. But I'm going to combat that. And I want to win, I will win. I wanted to be deserving of you. But before I do that, I will make myself proud first.